I see these old blog entries riddled with depression and anger,And i don't even recognize that guy!
I've grown firm and hardened to the worlds attempts at kicking me while i'm down and hoping that i won't get up,Now i can see through the thunderstorms and can appreciate them.The cleansing they provide,the darkness ever so temporary until pierced by the sun rays of mushrooms and psychedelic awakening.
Cheers,m8!
I found out today while picking up my sister that a person who i havnt considered a friend for some time,Has been lieing to me about his true motives.It came to my attention that he has been trying to get "friendly with my x.The girl who smashed my heart into a trillion pieces......not only does it hurt to know i was lied to (again) but just the thought of them two together gets my physically stressed out and the more i think about it the more i want to do somthing stupid.
My idea of sleeping with someone is actually falling asleep next to them
I've never wanted something more than that but apparently that's too much to ask for
I don't even think about sex because life constantly f*&$ me over
I use to be the nice guy who you could always talk to and now im cold
All the warmth has dispersed and it feels like my insides have froze over
My eyes aren't bright and gleaming with hope anymore
Now they are viciously tearing down physical appearances to search fo
So,Yet again tonight the plan i had was yet again ruined since the people who said they were going to come with my sister and i to hang out bailed.I really just cant stand where i live.all the people always and i mean ALWAYS do this to me,It makes me feel absolutely garbage because no matter what it feels like its my fault.
Its also the 4th day i havent smoked any bud and thats most likely the cause of this terrible mood that im in hence the title
Its times like this i wish I had those childho
Kinda felt like this one was needed,I apologize if i sound like such a sad sack of poo lately but i really cant help it.Ive never felt this way befor so i dont really know how to counter the depression,Im young and inexpirianced at this thing called life so please understand. . . .
LOL
I dont think anybody is going to read this anyway
I know im only human,I make mistakes and try to learn from my past.Recently a certain sombody who had made my life a living hell has re-surfaced with mixed messages...well maybe the messages arent mixed but to me they dont seem to be revealing true intentions.Anybody willing to give me their thoughts on the matter if I tell it?
In my time its hard to understand what its going to be like when im older,What will be considdered modern then? Modernity is such a crazy thing because people use old things and make them new again hense retro came to be.I dont see myself in the future
I just want to write,To the few close friends who read this and give me input on all types of things....
I realize that i dont have people to call friend in my real life,I have many people whom i occasionally talk to but i dont use the word lightly.Whats a good way to make some life long friends? I dont seem to have anybody to go to if i ever needed help with somthing (other than my father) so i was wondering if anybody had any advice.I have tried time and time again in my city to create friend
Even when things seem to be looking up for me,When good things start to happen for a change.
At some point i am braught back down to the bottom for one reason or another
I had a party tonight,After i made all the guests leave due to hearing the cops were coming ( and they did ) i realized for some reason people dont like me like they do in my mind.Apparently i am fooling myself into thinking that i am a fun,and likeable person whom others like to be around.In reality it seems i am only a fun p
Well if you are reading this Holy crap! i have somebody actually READING my blog i am so honored
Ok joking aside,I still feel like life is...less....whithout her around.I deleted everything that reminded me of her for the best.So that i could move on,But it seems i miss those pictures now.I only was with her for about 2 weeks,It feels like i just got dumped by a girlfriend of a few years...not just 2 weeks.She dosn't want me....
a girl decided that we should stop seeing eachother even tho we never "offically" dated,She meant alot to me and she let me know that she found somebody whom she liked better.I still feel crushed,Like a car is parked on my ribs and im laying on the ground helpless.The only thing i look forward to is the scenario in my head where i competely forget about her and somthing hapens with her new bf and she comes crawling back to me.And i whisper to her,"Get away from me".
Isolation is what I capitoli
Just wanted to say hey people
or maybe i just wanted to do somthing more with my life so i bcame a milkman to raise money for my college funds. . . . . . .. .. .. .. .. .maybe just maybe over that rainbow
jeez loo-weez i'm there, i'm here and im every where. Not to be just the two or three, Seconds minutes days?
Its gone.It got cancled and its gone,Thats sucks so hard right now.
I remember seeing tom and the others and how miguzi was a shout out to adult swim cause williams street made it.Sad to say it but i'll miss ya toonami
rip
1997-2008
wassap to the people who read this!.....lulz im sure nobody reads this but I like talking to myself,Weeelll lets see.I have my own team on XBL called Team Donk3y Sh0w FWI its me and one other dude,I pwned some n00bs who were running their mouths in halo 3,I got glasses,I purchased turok and it sucked,I got two new pairs of pants and last but not leat...well ok it is least.I watched a few vids on youtube made by n00bs who thought they were good at the game/thought that they found alleged "Secret
Wow halloween was fun this year!I got so many candy bars that i liked from almost evry house,But ill have to take a trip or two to the dentist to get rid of this horrible tooth ache.Mass Effect comes out on the 20th and i cant wait,Also my birthday is coming up in 11 days!See yall the next time i feel like writen about myself,Im outta here
Wow i cant beleive that october is here,It seems like just yesterday the sun was beating down on the city of lynn.And now the cold winds have came and stirred up the place,I recently got the game halo 3 and i loves it.Cant stop playing the dam game!Well i don really have anything else to say,Unless you all want to hear about how i learned to skydive.You are the weakest link,Goodbye!
Well i came here a nobody and now ive made myself recongized to some degree and im likeing it,Ive got alot of friends here and have pnwed people in the forums regaurding dinosaurian things.Well i dont ahve much more to say,Double_d out!
P.S i think im starting to like that show naruto,Its growing on me and im slowly likeing it more an more.
When i came here and looked around i was amazed,This place is like 9 times bigger than any other website im a member of.Not to mention the member amount,Theres almost enough numbers to create a phone number!I do know one thing,Ill def be stickin around this place.Robot_Snake out!