Letting go of fear, of our idols about God
Love casts our fear. Since I came to love God with my whole being and with all the strength of my heart, fear has left me. Even if I were to hear the most terrifying things about God’s justice, I would not fear Him at all, because I have come to know Him well. God is love, and His Spirit is peace. I see now that my deeds which have flowed from love are more perfect than those which I have done out of fear. I have placed my trust in God and fear nothing. I have given myself over to His holy will; let Him do with me as He wishes, and I will still love Him.
(Divine Mercy Diary 589)
Jesus told Sr. Faustina that there are two ways gates that we must choose to enter. One is the gate of mercy, the other the gate of justice. When people think of the justice of God, they often unconsciously (I know that I do more or less), go by their own human ability to show justice to others, or mercy for that matter. It is all very subjective and depending on our past, how much we have been loved or not, will lead us to be more or less fearful of God in a servile way. When in fact,’ Justice,’ and “Mercy,’ are the same thing, for both are based on absolute truth when applied to God. God is all mercy as well as infinitely just, they are not opposed to each other.
St. Paul says the Jesus is God’s “YES”, there is only openness from God towards his children, all of them. This points to the reality that in the end, when we stand before God, no matter what we receive (mercy or justice), both the soul and God agree completely. All is taken into account, instantly, and I think the mercy is received much more often than many believe. For who can understand Infinite Love, Compassion, and Mercy, since it is far beyond any human conception.
The deeper a human being loves another (sees the beloved), the more that is understood and forgiven. If the beloved does not want forgiveness, then all that is possible is separation, which is done on the part of the one who freely rejects mercy. “Freely’ is the operative word here. The Lord sees all, understands all and only God knows, when that free choice has been made to reject him. All who seek God will find him; all who knock will find the door opening to them, for in fact it has never been closed. People who seek God and fall constantly into the same sins, but continually rise and begin again, give great glory to God for they trust in his mercy, even if they have to swim against the current of neurotic fear.
In paragraph 1485 Jesus speaks to Sr. Faustian of his boundless mercy towards the greatness sinner:
The mercy of God, hidden in the Blessed Sacrament, the voice of the Lord who speaks to us from the throne of mercy: Come to Me, all of you.
Jesus: Be not afraid of your Savior; O sinful soul. I make the first move to come to you, for I know that by yourself you are unable to lift yourself to me. Child, do not run away from your Father; be willing to talk openly with your God of mercy who wants to speak words of pardon and lavish his graces on you. How dear your soul is to Me! I have inscribed your name upon My hand; you are engraved as a deep wound in My Heart. –1485
It seems to me that Jesus almost seems desperate to free of us our fear of God, a kind of fear that makes us slaves instead of his beloved children, each no more precious than the other. Sr. Faustina, was created, and given her many graces, so that she could speak to each one of us, she is for us, just as Jesus is for us all, and seeks us all.
Only look to Jesus, his mercy, not to one’s own self. For we do not understand ourselves, we often don’t know why we do the things we do, yet we still love and seek God….for God’s grace never leaves us. When a soul makes that choice to turn from God (and only God knows when that happens) I would think that all fear of God would be gone, and a certain kind of freedom would emerge, one opposed to the freedom of the Children of God.
The sacrament of reconciliation keeps our souls and hearts open to mercy, to the healing balm of the Holy Spirit, whose fire will slowly purify and heal us, even if takes a lifetime.
Jesus I trust in you, have mercy on us and on the whole world.—Br.MD