No direction
It's odd but for as long as I can recall I never had any goals, dreams or aspirations. I had no concept of what I wanted to do as an adult and still don't. I could never really see myself doing anything in particular either.
I have a job but not because I have some "goal" but rather it is a requirement to have money to pay for the high costs of being alive. There have been many times where I contemplated this issue; trying to discern what proclivities or "natural" talents (gads I hate that term) but never came up with anything. With no lasting interests in anything I don't delve too deeply in anything in particular. I am not successful as society defines it as the very concept is alien to me as is the concept of being "good" at something. Such a term is really subjective and relative anyways as it is others who decide and define whether you are "good" or not at something.
I have often chosen the path of least resistance because society has made it clear that the only thing you are here to do is be an employee, your identity and life meaning MUST come from a JOB. Quite depressing when society says that goals and aspirations are only valid if it involves a job/career. I don't know, I was always kind of drifting through life because even now little of life makes sense to me, I feel as if I am still sputtering in the acceleration lane of life while others around me are just merging seamlessly into the highway of life, in seemingly mindless and/or obliviousness to life, happy with cheap sitcoms, mass media, sports and overall dullness of society.
But...if I haven't figured out what I am adept at and where my proclivities may lie then I will never know and I suppose it is not really important. Just work, pay bills and hope that one still has a job at the end of the day even though you tried your best.
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