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Hello lovely ones

I miss UM, I always say this and then seem to never stay.

Who knows?

Anyway I moved to England and am half way through a drama course I am loving it. I have 2 baby rats to keep me company and am having the time of my life!

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Last night we went on an ADVENTURE.

Me and three friends, and one of their cousins, all headed into Belfast to go to a gay bar. A girlie night out without being hit on, yes please!

We got all dolled up and went round a few bars first, met a 'famous' drag queen (who was gorgeous), had some shots, found these 40 year old women who we decided to bring with us and we eventually ended up at our gay bar of the night.

It was fantastic. My fried Alex already had 8 shots of Jaegemeister and we were all a bit worse for wear. I am a total lightweight and we all did shots all night, NOT A GOOD IDEA but fun?!

I made friends with these fabulous boys who I danced with (on a stage I think?) all night, it was wonderful. My legs hurt so much.

We got kicked out because my friend Alex was so DRUNK she kept falling on the ground. She must have been nearing 20 shots I was getting worried. It took us an hour to walk down the road to get a bus. We met these weirdos from New York and I was smoking away like crazy even though I don't smoke...

Then I met a girl from my favourite shop and we got the bus home together and she invited me out with her next week. But I discovered my purse was missing and I lost about £90 as I was minding some money for a friend. Oh crap.

We got home and went to my friends cousins house who kept trying to get me to go to bed with her and her fiancé but I got too creeped out so we went to my friends house at about 4. Fell asleep at about 8 and got up at 10.

FANTASTIC ADVENTURE.

I miss UM!

I was reading over old posts the other day, what a trip down memory lane

I want to start posting again, I know, I know I said this a while ago but I MEAN it this time.

HELLO EVERYONE! Old and new

... and you know you're going to fall...

I am doing my GCSEs soon. I used to do so well at school, I was top of the year in nearly everything. Then last year things got kinda out of control, and I felt really lost and unsure of everything. I lost interest in school and I was bottom of the class for all the subjects I was once good at. My teachers went on and on about potential, but inside my head I was just screaming "you have no idea, leave me alone".

I want to do drama, and my teachers are now advising me to take that road but deep down I want someone to shake me and tell me it's stupid. I don't want to be disappointed.

I've always been a dreamer; I always need something to focus on or fantasise about. I am not a big fan of reality. My life isn't bad or anything, I just find it boring. It kinda depresses me to think that every day will be the same. And I really don't want to 'get old'.

So, anyway, last summer was such a terrible time and I am still not sure why. I felt so alone, I didn't talk to any of my friends from school and I kinda felt a bit heart-broken over some guy, and for some reason I kept thinking about horrid things that had happened years ago. It seems silly to think about this now, but for about a month and a half in the summer I cried every night, sometimes until about 6am but even at the time I felt ridiculous because I thought I had no reason to feel like that. I felt guilty because I know there are people who have it worse.

I read the Catcher in the Rye again and it made me think a lot. I've been trying to use this 'potential' that they all say I have, but it is all too much. I feel under so much pressure and I don't know what to do.

I stayed off school today, yesterday and I got sent home early on Monday. I don't know what is wrong. I'm scared this is coming back again, I woke up crying today and have felt like crap all week.

But I feel like I have no reasons?

I always feel lonely even though I have a lot of friends, but what I want more than anything is a true friend who I can trust completely.

I've wanted a pair of Irregular Choice shoes for a long time

... AND SHE CALLED ME PUMPKIN!

She was so beautiful, I told her I had come to London from Ireland to see her and I gave her a little bear with a shamrock on him, and she had put all other presents on a window thing, but she put my bear on her coffee mug plate!

I AM SO HAPPY!

More soon!

I am going to the Courtney Love book signing in London on the 24th! I have to book my cheap flights when my mummy gets home

I am also going to a Babyshambles gig and to 'Sex' the original Vivienne Westwood shop for a little look. And more shopping of course! And I am going to meet my lovely friend Hannah who lives in York, but is going to the signing too. EXCITED!!!

I got Courtney Loves diary last week!

If she does book signings in London, I want to go! Bit far, I know... but so worth it! My uncle lives in London so at least I'd have a place to stay.

EXCITED if this happens!

I have my Prom (Or Social, as we call it) in a few weeks! I'm excited, but I don't have a date



Here's my dress!

For Halloween we all went into Belfast and had such a laugh.

I was Alice in Wonderland, I had a fabulous costume, even if I do say so myself. I will get pictures soon!