Posted by Xanthurion2 , 31 August 2013 · 213 views
stuff random life whatever thoughts
I'm stuck. I start thinking about where I want to go with them. I have all these ideas but nothing seems to be right. It just doesn't fall into place. It's driving me crazy. I think I should try a few things; see what happens. I don't know if I used that semicolon correctly. I keep looking up proper usage of semicolons and other things but I always forget by the next time I need one. I wish I had payed more attention in English class. Looking back, I wish I had done a lot of things differently in school. But that's all in the past. It doen't matter anymore. What matters is the future. Or the lack thereof. Oftentimes, I wish a mysterious person from another planet or dimension would appear and take me with them to their world. Then I think of all the things I would be leaving behind and it makes me want to go even more. Thinking like this doesn't change anything unfortunately. If anything, it just makes things worse. It leaves a depressing feeling of boredom and unexcitement. I don't know if unexcitement is a word or not but I used it anyway because I don't care. I used to want to be rockstar. To change the face of the music industry forever, that was my dream. The dream has passed because I found something that seems more suitable for me to do with my life. It seems like the perfect career choice for me. Hopefully I can make something good that people like. Make a few bucks off of it and build a decent life for myself and my family and my future family. I hope it works out like that. I don't know what else I could do with my life. I'm not particularly cut out for anything, it seems. I don't excel in anything. I'm just a little bit better at some things than I am at other things but I'm not winning any awards. In fact, I don't think I've ever won a real award. I used to be on the honor roll in elementary school and I had perfect attendance a couple of years but those aren't the type of awards I'm talking about. It doesn't matter anyway. Who needs a piece of paper or medal to tell them how good they are at something? If you like what you're doing, that's all that matters, right? Who cares what anyone else thinks? Of course, if what you're doing is bad or illegal, then you shouldn't like it even if you are good at it. But that's not the kind of stuff I'm talking about. Well, I believe I've rambled long enough so I hope you enjoyed whatever this is. If not, it doesn't matter. It's not exactly a work of art. Just a random person's random thoughts at a random moment in this random world.