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Chapter 3: The Window
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25 October 2012
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Entry 3 In My New Dream Journal, after 3 dreamless nights.
The paranoia of people looking in at me through my window is very real fear I have of worrying what people will think of me and what I do. I'm sure this in my dream was symbolic, as well as past pushed down memories I have of staying up days at a time, late nights with illicit drugs, hearing voices outside my window mocking me and saying nasty things. I like the way that one of the kids came up to the window, letting me see him a different way (past my negative pre-disposed fear), then I decided to go outside to join them. But I also felt a sense of sadness and loneliness when I came outside, and they had taken my place inside. I felt it when I looked back through the sliding glass. Almost as if they had tricked me.
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Night dream I was in some house I'd never seen before, but this was my house. I had the blinds closed, but kept worrying that people could see
inside, and was paranoid, even though I wasn't doing anything inside that warranted worrying if someone coujld see. I remember looking out the
window after hearing a commotion, and some guy outside was acting really weird, doing something silly ,as if they were drunk or something. It
seemed like a funny video as I looked outside, as if I was watching TV. I laughed , then wondered why he was doing, then figured he was either
drunk or on drugs. I then felt bad for him. Later I heard a few nighbor kids playing outside my window and was annoyed, thinking they were
looking inside at me. Then one called to me. I opened blinds and he was asking me to come outside to play in the sprinklers or something. I
realized they were just playing and weren't being rude and bothering me by looking in, so I came outside and felt good. As I came out to the
lawn on side, I noticed now they had gone inside my house, and I was now alone outside, looking in at them through the back sliding glass
door from a distance.
inside, and was paranoid, even though I wasn't doing anything inside that warranted worrying if someone coujld see. I remember looking out the
window after hearing a commotion, and some guy outside was acting really weird, doing something silly ,as if they were drunk or something. It
seemed like a funny video as I looked outside, as if I was watching TV. I laughed , then wondered why he was doing, then figured he was either
drunk or on drugs. I then felt bad for him. Later I heard a few nighbor kids playing outside my window and was annoyed, thinking they were
looking inside at me. Then one called to me. I opened blinds and he was asking me to come outside to play in the sprinklers or something. I
realized they were just playing and weren't being rude and bothering me by looking in, so I came outside and felt good. As I came out to the
lawn on side, I noticed now they had gone inside my house, and I was now alone outside, looking in at them through the back sliding glass
door from a distance.
The paranoia of people looking in at me through my window is very real fear I have of worrying what people will think of me and what I do. I'm sure this in my dream was symbolic, as well as past pushed down memories I have of staying up days at a time, late nights with illicit drugs, hearing voices outside my window mocking me and saying nasty things. I like the way that one of the kids came up to the window, letting me see him a different way (past my negative pre-disposed fear), then I decided to go outside to join them. But I also felt a sense of sadness and loneliness when I came outside, and they had taken my place inside. I felt it when I looked back through the sliding glass. Almost as if they had tricked me.
