I am not sure how free I am, for as I age I still deal with the same issues, mostly because I have not fully faced some of them, a forestalling of pain, but in the end mote, for the pain only gets greater. Living in a finite world, there will be limitations that constrain us from freeing ourselves from suffering, or of even beginning to understand what it is all about. There are no black and white answers and those who seek them I feel limit their ability to open themselves up to possibility. Our understanding can deepen, but it is something each must learn. We can read others for help and insight, but if what they write does not in some way intersect with personal experience, then the reading will avail little.