Freedom is a tricky subject. There are times when I feel strong and can deal with just about anything, though it is based more on a cycle of ups and downs that most of us go through. Then the times of weakness and struggle come about and the illusion of control is once again shattered. It is a merry-go-round of willfulness and then the failure of will power. The weaknesses are many and differ with each person. For some it is food, for others sex, drugs of all sorts or alcohol. It could be work; being driven to succeed at all cost for when failure is experienced, the inner chaos and despair is hard to deal with. It is like a deep knot within the soul that can’t be untied or even cut through. It is a permanent struggle. Yet there is a deeper process that seems to lessen this painful knot as we age, mature and grow. Growth is the key word I would say and openess to graces lead.