Inner and outer changes
Openness to life, to its open ended-ness, comes about from long experience from learning about the cycles of life. The sunshine comes out, but then so do the dark clouds that bring inner storms. Personal moral failures, the common but deeply painful tragedies and problems of life, force us to make choices and to hopefully live by them. The integration of our longings for wholeness and that aspect of self that seeks escape from reality even if it is self destructive, takes time, decades for most. For me, I am still in the middle of it all, yet there is inner movement. It is as if this growth happens because I am simply open and trying, that whatever causes this deep healing is something over and beyond my own struggles. In the end, it depends on conscious choices to trust in life’s goodness and meaning. We can experience failure as falling forwards or backwards… the death to the normal way of doing things is a slow and painful one and the path often opaque if not hidden altogether.