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To believe in new beginnings

Posted by markdohle , 13 May 2012 · 274 views

To believe in new beginnings


What we seek most
is often the hardest to accept,
the heart withdraws in fear
when the warmth gets too great,
when the gates are open
and inner fears exposed,
past hurts and betrayals remembered.
so much trust is needed
to believe in new beginnings.

God's love,
the hardest of all for some,
to...


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My child

Posted by markdohle , 12 May 2012 · 223 views

My child


My son,
my child,
all of my children,
if you only knew,
understood,
my infinite love
your would die of joy.

I hide myself for that reason,
so that you can live out your lives.

All that happens,
be it pain or pleasure,
sadness or joy,
is important,

Know this

I suffer and rejoice with you,
every human being I see as the...


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Into the light

Posted by markdohle , 12 May 2012 · 211 views

Into the light


If we believe we have no choices in our lives,
then that conclusion will become true,
a path set by deep conviction of the way things are;
self fulfilling prophecy.

No easy way out for us I fear;
I so wish it were different,
but to go against the tide,
slow going as it is,
is a path that has hope in the process
and...


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Choices deeply hidden

Posted by markdohle , 11 May 2012 · 205 views

Choices deeply hidden


We can only give what we have. Choices are made often at such a deep level within the soul, that they may not be understood, or known, to be choices at all. We are told things about ourselves when young that influences our options…. even if they are often hidden from our conscious minds. I think...


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It sounds easy

Posted by markdohle , 10 May 2012 · 214 views


It sounds so easy

It sound easy when stated,
to forgive and love,
have compassion and empathy...
however in reality,
the soul must often sweat blood
and call on God from the depths of inner choas.




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A life long journey

Posted by markdohle , 10 May 2012 · 244 views

A life long journey


Grace is like the sun dissipating the dark mist,
that gently but not without struggle and pain,
frees the soul in its own time from inner chains
and imprisonment.

To hate that which keeps us imprisoned is a waste,
for we only fight ourselves,
when what is needed is compassion and love.

For pain and yes our...


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What is solid and secure

Posted by markdohle , 09 May 2012 · 205 views

What is solid and secure

My line of work will not let me forget,
that the center that we stand on,
that feels so real,
is made of sand that allows all to sink into,
each moment becomes a memory,
racing towards a seeming infinite past,
our moments gone before we actually can experience them,
micro seconds at the speed of light
making all seem like...


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The funeral

Posted by markdohle , 08 May 2012 · 188 views

The funeral

Malachy lived for 99 years and ten months. He had few illnesses, and he only needed full time care for the last week of his life. He had little suffering, just some terminal agitation that we had meds for. Before he died he told one of the monks how beautiful the grace of God is and how happy he was. He also...


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Luck, skill and surety

Posted by markdohle , 07 May 2012 · 216 views

Luck, skill and surety


From time to time I like to play Spider Solitaire. It involves both skill and luck. I can find myself stuck and it seems obvious that I will lose. Then I keep looking and eventually find a move, and suddenly things begin to fall into place and I win. I have played games in which it seems like I will win, every...


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Why do we hope?

Posted by markdohle , 06 May 2012 · 366 views

Why do we hope?

I was sitting today thinking about the past,
not my past,

no,

the far past,
thousands of years ago,
so many lives,
lived fully,
over in a flash and mostly forgotten;
it makes me wonder,
what is left for us after we ourselves go?

We to will be looked upon as ancients,
a culture now lost in the...


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Those who disagree

Posted by markdohle , 05 May 2012 · 555 views

Those who disagree


Words can be used in interesting ways. For instances, it is common to call those who don't agree with us either stubborn or narrow minded, and those who agree with a certain point that is agreed upon, open minded and intelligent. Anyone who belongs to another group, be it in politics or religion or some...


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To start anew

Posted by markdohle , 05 May 2012 · 372 views

To start anew

At times people tell me that if only they were younger they would do things differently. Well ten years from now, they may be saying the same thing; bemoaning bad choices, wishing that they were a decade younger. We can only start where we are, we can’t go back to the past and redo whatever it was we did, nor can we go into...


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The cell

Posted by markdohle , 04 May 2012 · 348 views

The cell


Our senses are great gift given to us. With them we continue to learn about our world and the wondrous universe that we live in. Yet our senses are also a prison cell of sorts, though we have yet to reach those walls that confine us. I suppose there will always be mystery that draws us forward on our search for answers, which...


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We all mourn in our own way

Posted by markdohle , 04 May 2012 · 362 views

We all mourn in our own way

When someone dies that is known,
when contact was on a daily basis,
their passing can’t be ignored,
for the space once filled
both in the inner and outer world
is now empty and cold.

I mourn in my own way,
no tears,
just an inner quiet calm,
unpleasant,
that is in fact sadness
for one lost.

I don’t think I will...


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Hollowed

Posted by markdohle , 03 May 2012 · 278 views



Hollowed

The process of dying can be long and arduous
both for the care giver's
as well for the one nearing his or her end.

There seems to be a waiting,
a silence that is present,
as if the soul is being hollowed out
becoming free of all that holds it back.

So little we understand,
all we can do is go forward in...


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Malachy

Posted by markdohle , 02 May 2012 · 495 views

Malachy


Malachy is 99 years old, due to be a hundred in July. He has been under our care for a few years now but has needed very little care. We just watch him and make sure he eats right, gets enough sleeps etc. He has mixed feeling about his upcoming birthday, because his family (which he loves dearly), wants to give him a big...


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Soul healing

Posted by markdohle , 01 May 2012 · 367 views

Soul healing

When the end comes,
all will be revealed,
who we really are,
what we did to others
and what was done to us.

Healing is never easy,
why people think the souls rejuvenation
will be painless is something I never understood,
for to face truth and to embrace it
is perhaps in the beginning,
soul shattering,
pulling out deep roots of being become...


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Jodi

Posted by markdohle , 01 May 2012 · 191 views

A good friend of mine lost her daughter last week. She wanted me to speak at the funeral but I can' make it, here is a poem I wrote for the occasion.



Jodi

The first time I met Jodi,
I thought;

Oh my...


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The wait

Posted by markdohle , 01 May 2012 · 263 views
the process of dying
The wait

It is not so much death that most fear,
for as we age I believe we face that reality squarely,
to be born is to die, a simple fact that can’t be forgotten,
no matter what our beliefs, we learn to accept death.

The process is another matter entirely,
for many it can takes years to finally let go,
in nursing homes, or on beds of pain,
the...


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Currency

Posted by markdohle , 30 April 2012 · 211 views


Currency



Loves currency is simply time spent with the one loved,
be it with a friend, wife, or ones children,
and yes with God,
excuses not to give this attention
shows perhaps that the love is not so deeply rooted
as one might suppose.



Though this is not always true of course.