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ugh again
Posted by , 16 February 2005 - 06:59 PM
a week away from school... YIPEEE! right? WRONG!
i hate breaks from school... i sit in my basement and get depressed... i browse the forum a jillion and a half times a day... i eat, because i'm bored, and then i weigh 10 pounds more when i get back to school... and i can't leave because i have nowhere to go.... ugh... i hate breaks from school!
i hate breaks from school... i sit in my basement and get depressed... i browse the forum a jillion and a half times a day... i eat, because i'm bored, and then i weigh 10 pounds more when i get back to school... and i can't leave because i have nowhere to go.... ugh... i hate breaks from school!
UGH
Posted by , 07 February 2005 - 09:55 PM
well... time for me to gripe and complain....
last night my friend katie was bragging about how she flashed an entire highway, and i guess i got a little mad at her... i didn't mean too... i was disappointed in her... so now i feel bad for getting mad. that also got me to thinking about how a little thing can affect a lot of people. a couple of guys probably saw her do that... this might have caused them to fantisize about it, (sin) which could go on for a few days or even months (more sin over time) also, they could have told their friends about it, causing them to possibly fantisize (more sin) also, she told everyone online by leaving "i totally flashed a highway this weekend" as an away message on AIM. every guy who saw it probably fantasized about it (more sin) and even I fantisized about it (more sin), and then i got mad at myself for fantisizing about it.... so that's a lot of crap... and it's still bugging me.
also, there's this awesome christian girl named Liz who i went out with before... i realized i still have feelings for her, but she has absolutly none for me, so that's bugging the crap out of me because i can't stop thinking about it, even thought i know nothing will come of it... me and my stupid brain.... why do emotions, and feelings have to exist? also, there's this girl named Roz... she's my friends sister... she's christian too, and an awesome person, but i hardly know her, and i think she likes me.... ugh, and even if i end up getting to know her more, she looks exactly like my friend (who is a guy) but with long hair, and other female attributes.....
i feel sick to my stomach, and i've almost passed out about 5 times today... probably a sugar reaction, or something like that... i don't know... i feel like crap, and i can't stop thinking, and the thinking is making me upset/sad/pissed... and that's not good....
ugh.... i'm just glad i have the Lord.
last night my friend katie was bragging about how she flashed an entire highway, and i guess i got a little mad at her... i didn't mean too... i was disappointed in her... so now i feel bad for getting mad. that also got me to thinking about how a little thing can affect a lot of people. a couple of guys probably saw her do that... this might have caused them to fantisize about it, (sin) which could go on for a few days or even months (more sin over time) also, they could have told their friends about it, causing them to possibly fantisize (more sin) also, she told everyone online by leaving "i totally flashed a highway this weekend" as an away message on AIM. every guy who saw it probably fantasized about it (more sin) and even I fantisized about it (more sin), and then i got mad at myself for fantisizing about it.... so that's a lot of crap... and it's still bugging me.
also, there's this awesome christian girl named Liz who i went out with before... i realized i still have feelings for her, but she has absolutly none for me, so that's bugging the crap out of me because i can't stop thinking about it, even thought i know nothing will come of it... me and my stupid brain.... why do emotions, and feelings have to exist? also, there's this girl named Roz... she's my friends sister... she's christian too, and an awesome person, but i hardly know her, and i think she likes me.... ugh, and even if i end up getting to know her more, she looks exactly like my friend (who is a guy) but with long hair, and other female attributes.....
i feel sick to my stomach, and i've almost passed out about 5 times today... probably a sugar reaction, or something like that... i don't know... i feel like crap, and i can't stop thinking, and the thinking is making me upset/sad/pissed... and that's not good....
ugh.... i'm just glad i have the Lord.
I go from vowing to never using livejournal again,
Posted by , 11 January 2005 - 02:50 AM
to this?!? oh well... it's all the same, except my parents don't know where this one is, so they can't read all about my life. It's not that i have anything to hide from them, but i just feel like there's some stuff that i'd rather not have them know. I'm sure you've felt that way before too... Well, it's gettin' around that time in which i must shower, and sleep. g'night UM.
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