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Just afew piccys of our special day.

Have a wonderful and magical time all you lovely lil elves

Im feeling in a wubby mood today, so to celebrate im sending out hugs to ya all...enjoy hehe

Some of you may have noticed i haven't been around very much, i have missed talking to so many of you in chat, so here is a lil explanation as to why.
Things took a turn for the worst recently, life has been dealing a cruel set of cards to make me stand up and take notice of certain things, i was basically stuck in a rut, i wont go into the whole detail of the situation, but the end decision i made was one i regret, i sat and watched as i told my boyfriend of 8 years it was over i was leaving, the hurt i caused him that night is something i wont forget..i now know what it is to watch someone break and how it tore me up.

That night i done something i promised i would never do, hurt the one i love..
Sometimes it takes situation like that to really take notice and value what you do have, its so true, you dont know what you have got till its gone, thankfully i came to my senses and we are making a fresh start, a new home away from the bad memories that inhabit where we are now, we can overcome the problems we have, time, patience, and faith in each other and not to forget the love we have. Below is a lil poem i done last night.....

These past few days have been a struggle,
head in a spin and all a muddle,
but a moment i realization hit me today
when i realised exactly what i was giving away.

I made that step which could have proved
to be my downfall if i followed through.
With my bags packed and ready to go
i slumped to the floor and shouted out NO

I could not face the pain i felt, deep in my heart
i was making a mistake.
For what i thought i needed from life
is not the thing i truly crave to survive.

What i have in front of me now i
could never replace, the thought of losing that
makes my heart sink without a trace.

Problems in life can be resolved, with
logical thinking and compromise, to weigh
up the balance of important things you hold dear
now i know in my heart, it stands out clear.

I want to thank my honey for giving me the opportunity to have a fresh start, he is my world and will never take things for granted again.

Had a really nice day today, my mother, sister and little niece came over to visit.
We don't see each other enough, but always keep in contact over the phone, but its not the same, my niece is growing so fast and i dont get to see that as much as i would like.

I have decided my new years resolution is to make more time to see my family, its no ones fault we dont, with different working hours and so on, obstacles always get in the way and we keep putting stuff off........so I'm going to change this.

I have many things i am going to do, not try, that word automatically defeats you, things that i should have dealt with sooner, but again put off, next year I'm gonna make a difference for the better, do the things that have been bugging me and not just sit and moan about it.

Wish me luck for my action year ahead of me

Wow doesn't time fly past, its been ages since i put anything into this blog, it's been one of those times when you tell yourself you will do something and keep putting it off...and off.

Well probably like you I'm getting ready for the Christmas holidays, still have so much to do, each year i tell myself i will get it done sooner....do you think i take my own advice...no of course not, like many i rush around like a headless chicken in search of suitable gifts for people.

Oh and of course the decorations, the yearly visit to that place which over the year accumulates enough dust to set 100 people sneezing and me running from the spiders.
After Christmas each year i put the lights in a box all neat and tidy.....soooooo how come when i take them out they are all tangled and have bulbs missing. I have come to the conclusion that the company's making these lights also have little elf's working for them, throughout the year it, gives them enough time to search peoples lofts and basements and destroy your lights so you have to buy new each year.

Now you are all thinking im a scroogy fish, honestly im not, very far from it, Christmas is a wonderful time of year, i enjoy the time i get to spend with my boyfriend, giving him his pressies and all the gorgeous food....oh yummy

I am having a bad day, woke up this morning with all the aches and pains like I've been in a boxing match, i get bad sinus problems, it always makes me feel so yucky and fed up.
I asked my Doctor if there was anything they could do, i have had this now for 6 years, constant nose sprays and tablets, I've started to rattle when i walk.

The only other solution apparently is to have an operation, i hold my nose tightly when i tell you this... they drill into the nose cavity, which is supposed to make the sinus problems disappear unfortunately its not as simple as that, it can have some nasty side affects like. complete loss of smell, infections that are much more worse than i have now, i think its something like 3 out of 5 people will encounter some problem with the procedure....ain't that nice

I truly am at a loss what to do, it is annoying having sinus probs, but i'm at the stage where i can cope with it, i need my sense of smell.....how else do i hunt for chocolate.

I have just found the perfect poem, hope you like it.

We met upon the internet,
A friendship electronic,
Expressed alone in words and thoughts,
Inevitably platonic

We live too far apart for us
to mingle in the flesh,
But much more close than family,
our hearts and feeling mesh

Your dear, dear self reveals itself
without a voice or face.
We have our own sweet home within
our precious cyberspace

By Turlough O'Carolan

It is such a gorgeous day today, the sun is shinning the sky is blue, and i have to go to work boo hoo.
I love the sun, it makes you feel so much better and puts me in such a good mood, unfortunately the winter is coming, the time of year for clouds, rain, cold brrrrrrrrrrr , its not all bad as long as we get some snow this year i will be happy, it would be great to have a white Christmas for a change, i will keep my fingers crossed.

Well of to work i go, i bid you all a good day and hopefully as happy as mine.

Over the past few weeks i have been in the position to evaluate myself, my life style and I'm happy to confirm I'm so so happy, i have such a wonderful partner of 8 years, who stands by me through thick and thin, cares and loves me like a princess.
My job is going well, of course i would love to win the lotto, but as it stands i can cope with the work and have good people to work with.

I feel at times i should be doing more with my life, i should have chosen a more career based job, i should be married with little fishes, but i'm not. These things i have come to realise are not important, when it comes down to the facts, i'm happy with what i have and don't want to change nor my boyfriend, we are content with each other, to me we are the richest people in the world, money can't buy what we have.

The problem comes when you are getting pressure off family and friends to conform to the supposed norm of getting married, house, babies, and don't understand why we are taking so long.
The truth is why should we? do we have to do these things to be accepted into society? do we need a piece of paper and two rings to tell us of the love we have in our hearts for each other? the answer is no.
We will get married, we are engaged, but we will do it when we want to and before the chocolate starts having an effect on my figure.

I find some peoples relationships around me so false, so many secrets, lies, deceit, to me that's not a true relationship, they don't communicate with each other just two people sharing the same house with different lives, i find it sad.
I am old fashioned when it comes to relationships, if you are with someone be with them, don't go around cheating, it doesn't only hurt your loved one, but you also have to carry that guilt and shame.
I have been on the other end of that, finding out that the person you cared for couldn't give a damn and for what? a one night stand compared with what i was offering? that's what hurt so much, the rejection and shame on myself that i trusted in that person.
Why do people do it? it is beyond me that if you really care about your partner why you would go out of your way to knowingly hurt them.

I think people need to wake up and start to appreciate what they have, we will all be old one day, its better to be old and have a companion than be old and lonely dont you think?
Stop taking things for granted and thank your lucky stars if you have found your soul mate.

He picks me up when i'm down
makes me smile when i frown

In times of trouble he is my rock
a guiding light i turn to when i'm lost

I am complete our souls entwined
hearts beating as one, together
for all time

See he make me so happy *doe's the happy dance*
Go seek that soul and you will know the happiness that will follow