Ron Jeremy, on 28 January 2013 - 09:37 PM, said:
I am not an atheist.
But that doesn't mean that I am automatically a lover of God either. I've gone through a lot of phases and now the only emotion I want to convey toward God is indifference. I gotta be honest, the main reason why I still cling to the idea of God is hardship. Yeah, I am going through a tough phase of my life (not as devastating as back in 2005 to 2007) and I feel crappy about my life in general.
I believe in God, or many gods. The sheer size of the universe makes me believe that there can't be just one deity managing everything. So,I am a bit of a polytheist. Not quite a neo-pagan, but just a bit of a polytheist. Now I am attending a Unitarian church every now and then and consider myself a Unitarian-leaning person. But I do have my criticism on my newfound religion. I believe that most people need some kind of spiritual rituals and I came to believe that Unitarianism is the least insane kind of all. (and yes, I am also interested in the teachings of Buddha.) To some of you guys, I am definitely on my highway to eternal damnation, since I chose to reject Jesus as my lord and savior.
See, I believe in God or gods. But I simply can't believe that God is wholly good. I just can't anymore. That's a part of reasons why I won't go back to Christianity. I gotta confess, I believe that Bible is just a marketing and advertisement for God. And it's a very exaggerated one. When I came to believe that, I just felt empty and hopeless because the promises and covenants of the Bible were what I wholeheartedly relid on for most of my life...
What I like about you is that you take your spirituality seriously, you see the need for it, you question belief systems enough to break away from one you were very involved in, and you are still questioning... beautiful my friend.. you are on your path.. I am a christian, but I dont believe your on the road to eternal damnation, I believe your on the road to enlightenment, seeking, questioning and growing, the answers are within... I also, like you, dont agree with all the teachings of the bible, nor what many churches would like to force us to believe, I wont share all my philosophies on this thread, but I will tell you I have found my comforter.. I havent found the answers to all the questions I have but at least I have something to build on. Take it easy and good luck in your search!
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