Am I a reluctant psychic or nut job?

[Mo-Mo]

Im not really sure where to start, as I have never talked about this before, but here is my story:

I have never really been interested in being a psychic, but for some unexplained reason I KNOW things, SEE things, HEAR things, SMELL things, much like that little boy in "the sixth sense." It scares me to death sometimes, and I have tried not to think of this "talent"--I have even tried to "pray" it away, but for whatever reason, this ability follows me around and I cant seem to get rid of it. In no particular order, here are some of my "psychic" experiences over the course of the past 30 years or so:

1. When I was 13, my grandma died, and I wasnt able to say good bye. I was BEYOND sad. SO sad, that I lit a vigil candle and begged her to "come to me" so I could say goodbye, well...the vigil candle (a candle ensconced in a heavy glass container) CRACKED from the very top of the candle straight to the base. This wouldnt have been very surprising had the heat from the candle been burning for a very long time, but the candle was newly lit...I had done this in the privacy of my room, so its not like dramatic changes in temperature could have caused the crack to happen. Anyway, it scared me so bad, I decided maybe I didnt want to say goodbye to my grandmas spirit in person...

2. When I was 15, my sister's boyfriend died. She was 29 at the time, her boyfriend was 23. My Mom hated the guy with a burning passion, to the point of physical violence. For about a week after he died, I could sense a cold chill in her bedroom, SO COLD, that I could see my breath (it was the middle of July). As I stood there in bewilderment at what could possibly be causing this cold spot, the curtain moved as if it got caught in a gust of wind, but lo and behold, the windows were shut, and no AC register or fan was around that could have caused this. I got so scared, I ran out of her room and down 2 flights of stairs and was greeted at the landing by my cousin who said: "Whats the matter with you, you look like youve seen a ghost" Anyway...I never actually "saw" him, but I had a very strong psychic sense that it WAS him, because this cold spot was only present in my Moms room and nowhere else.

3. As a result of that guys death, my sis fell into a depression-she wasnt getting along with my Mom, and it was driving her to the point of suicide. One day, I told her very matter of factly, to "hang in there" because all of this would be over with soon since she was going to marry "an old man who will take you very very far away"--she thought I was NUTS because she was certainly not dating as she was still mourning her boyfriends death, let alone interested be in an "old man" ...I have no idea how I could have known this, and she questioned me to death over and over about how I could come up with this malarkey, to which I had no viable answer, but sure enough, within 2 years, she married a guy 30 years older than her, and he moved her to England

4. When I was 24, my 9 month old baby was in his walker and fell down a step and hit his head on a stair tread. We took him to the hospital, and a very kind female pediatrician examined him, told us they would keep him for overnight for "observation," go ahead and go home. I insisted on staying with my son, didnt sleep a wink, held him in my lap the whole time. I told my husband point blank that the "friendly" doctor was going to try to take take my baby away from me. My husband reassured me that I was just stressed out, feeling guilty about the accident, I told him no way, Im not leaving. Sure enough, the next day, social services investigated me for child abuse and I almost had my child taken away because of the report the "nice" doctor had filed.

5. When my Dad died 11 years ago, I had the most VIVID dream in my entire life-it was like a technicolor dream, like a wizard of Oz type colorful dream as if I was fully awake...In my dream, I was driving down a desolate highway but the sky was unbelieveably bright and sunny--off to the side of the road was what looked to be a broken down Uhaul-I told my husband we should stop and offer help. When I peered inside, I saw my DAD!!! He was waving to me, smiling, but did not speak. Strangely enough tho, he looked like he was 40 years old again, NOT like what he looked like when he was 67, when he died...anyways, I just thought this was a very vivid dream that my subconscious gifted to me so I could say goodbye to my Dad because I had a very good job, good life etc, absolutely no plans to move... ....BUT....about a year after I had that dream, I was inside of a UHAUL truck, of all things....crossing the state line into Texas, and I said to my husband "Look honey...its SO beautiful, the sky is so bright and....." SUDDENLY it dawned on me that the scenery I was seeing in REAL LIFE was EXACTLY what I had seen when I had that dream about my Dad. My Dad "showed" me I was moving at least a year before it happened!!! Needless to say, this freaked me out...

6. When we first arrived in TX, we lived in corporate housing close to the medical center. One morning, I went into the kitchen to get coffee--I "saw" a grayish silhouette, a figure of a man sitting on the couch leaning over as if to tie his shoes...being that it was only 6 am or so, I was the only one awake, so I THOUGHT to myself: "I wonder what HE is doing here" to which he "replied" TELEPATHICALLY that he "lived here" (in my apartment) because he was being treated for cancer at the medical center. I have to say-this experience freaked me out yet again, because although I "experienced" things in the past, I never actually "talked" to a ghost before...

7. About a month or two ago, I went for a walk with my husband around our neighborhood on a Friday night. It was about 7 pm or so. Halfway thru the walk, I encountered an OVERWHELMING smell of flowers, as if I was at a funeral home, standing right in front of a casket, a very VERY vivid and overwhelming sense of death came over me to the point that it stopped me cold in my tracks. I said to my husband "Honey, do you smell flowers?" NO, he said, absolutely NO flowers around....I kept walking, started walking very briskly because the smell followed me around like a black cloud over my head. Finally I blurted out to my husband: "honey, someone is gonna DIE, I can FEEL it, I can SMELL it" He told me to stop being so dramatic...he was very annoyed since I had no "specific" information about a person, or WHEN it was going to happen. He literally said that people die "all the time" and it could be "anybody"--absolutely, unequivocally DISMISSED me, but I was ADAMANT. I said NO, seriously, I am trying to figure this out, but I am very confused, because the death is connected to or affecting YOU, but not ME... I was wracking my brain trying to figure it out: after 26 years of marriage, how could a death possibly be connected to HIM but NOT affect ME??? Well, Monday morning I got my answer: My husband was at work, it was about 9 am, and he was furiously working on a very important project when he got an unexpected email from his boss: my husbands partner would not be working with him anymore because she had been unexpectedly rushed to the hospital on Friday night around 7 pm (same time I was walking and had that "experience") and she continued to worsen throughout the night and died on saturday morning....well, needless to say, it most definitely sent chills down my husbands spine.

8. Not long thereafter, I was sitting on my bed, painting my toenails, when I heard a voice whisper in my ear that someone was going to die. Well...again, so jarring and random...why would a spirit whisper this to me??? I dont even personally know this person. But when my husband came home, I told him: "Honey, someone whispered to me that (so and so) is gonna die (person who was gonna die is the son of a famous person)...finally, I had an actual name for my skeptic husband. He said ("famous person" is gonna die?) I said NO....his SON...my husband said: Oh....who is that? (son isnt famous). about a day or two later, we were on the couch watching TV. I was looking for a tv show, needed a time that it was to be broadcast, so I opened my trusty laptop to do a google search, and what do you know...Headline (breaking) news: "So and so (the name that was whispered to me) DIED..." I dropped my laptop, SCREAMED, I was so shocked I was shaking, it scared the ba jeezus outta my husband who was sitting beside me. I told him to look at the laptop... for the first time, I had a name...needless to say, my husband is a doubter no more...............but the thing is.........even after all these crazy experiences, I STILL DOUBT MYSELF................

WHY does this happen to me when I am so reluctant and SCARED about this "talent"??? I have tried many many times to block it out, to no avail................I do want to help people, but at the same time, I am a faithful person, and I dont want to open the door to things I am not supposed to know. How do I know that the things I "know" are from a GOOD place and not something evil??? HELP please....

[Lenore Graves]

Wow ok that was a long read!

I have to say that perhaps your husband is right when he said to stop being so dramatic lol. No offence but theres nothing in that list thats that extraordinary.

#1 A glass candle breaking, is just weak glass breaking. Maybe the candle wasnt very hot, but who knows, maybe the candle was dropped and the glass was weak.

#2 Feeling a cold spot in a room, even in the summer is not that weird.

#3 As for "predicting" your sisters old husband, well I'll admit is a pretty weird coincidence. Since she was in a fragile state, being swepped away to a far away land by an older gentelman would probably really appeal to her, so perhaps she was infulenced by your suggestion.

#4 Your child falling from a stroller and hitting it's head. Well it's normal procedure for any of those incidences to be reported to social services by doctors. So you "sensing it" was just your common sense and intuition because you obviously felt that it might be a problem.

#5 weird dream about your late father....just sounds like a weird dream

and now the death premonitions....well people die, and smelling flowers while walking in your neighborhood isnt all that weird. I smell flowers when I walk around my neighborhood too...because people grow flowers. It was just a coincidence. This famous persons son dying thing, which was wispered in your ear...well I dont know, sorry but after reading all these other "incidences" seems just too far fetched.

You have a pretty active and vivid imagation, I'll give you that! Maybe you should put those skills to good use and be a writter.

[John from Lowell]

Hello Mo-Mo,

Some of us are different in that we sense things beyond 3D perceptions. It is frightening mostly because people like us were killed for being different not that long ago. The vast majority of humanity is conditioned to accept only 3D realities. Science is gradually discovering quantum realities beyond 3D. This will be a very slow process that will take hundreds of years and many generations.

It would be really nice if you could "pray away" your gifts and escape into that confined physical reality which most of humanity enjoys. All I can say is that must be a Good Reason why you have not done that very thing yet. Consider that there is a potential awakening for you where all of this would make sense to you in a logical manner. What I can say is that you are not alone and that there are vast number of people like you. Not as many as you would like but enough to support you.

John

[Mo-Mo]

Nah, Ive no interest in being a writer-I make a pretty decent living and am quite happy the way things are. I dont mind your skepticism-as I mentioned, my husband frustrated me for a VERY long time until his co worker died. I am to the point where I have an attitude like "it is what it is" I dont invite it, but I cant block it out either. If its just my "imagination" than why would something like this happen:

One day I was talking to a co worker. She told me that her parents divorced when she was 9. But as she was telling me about their divorce-above her head, I could see a scene play out, like a movie, and I could see her parents arguing- they were arguing over her moms cheating on her Dad, and her Dad hit her Mom....I asked her if her Mom had blonde hair with a china cut, I asked her if her Dad has a mustache and curly black hair. She said YES, and I never met her parents-I also asked her if she had red Mexican tile on the floor of their house. Again she said YES, in the house she grew up in, but that has changed now, since her Mom remarried. I also described her Moms second husband. Tall, thin, light brown hair, blue eyes, clean shaven, short hair, like a military cut...YES to all of the above. Indeed, he was in the ARMY...never met him either. If this was my "imagination" WHY would I be "imagining" something that happened 17 years ago???

[Mo-Mo]

As crazy as this sounds, I was actually HOPING that you would read the post and let me know what you think, LOL. But of course, you probably already knew that and thats why you posted! so THANK YOU! See, as nutty as it may seem, I truly do believe that people who have an ability to pick up on these types of incidences will gravitate towards one another and share or confirm experiences. My son also has "the gift" and ever since he was a little boy-I could tell that he had an ability to "sense" things. Case in point: He also "saw" the gray silhouette who used to live in our corporate apartment. I asked him to describe what he saw, and he described it exactly the way I saw it. We also lived in a house previously that had spirits, and he picked up on them as well, again describing them exactly as I had "seen" them. Mind you, he was only 6 years old at the time, so I never spoke to him about them at the time, but 15 years later, as a 21 year old, he described the three spirits to me, and where they were located (they were in his bedroom). This is why I think there might be something to it, because theres more than one person who noticed the same things I picked up on, and my son is an engineer, 100% logical--we arent out there ghost hunting...but we experience sights and sounds we cant explain, and more often than not, we wish these incidences didnt happen because they can be very scary...

[Timothy]

Im not really sure where to start, as I have never talked about this before, but here is my story:

Welcome to UM.

I'd say far from a psychic, much closer to misplaced comprehension (and a little nut job in there for good measure).

[spirit unknown]

Hi Mo-Mo.

I'm not a psychic. Maybe a nut job? From what I know.(not alot.) Don't fight it! Some people don't become psychic till later on in their years while some are born with it. Some say we ALL are psychic. We just have to hone that part of are abilities.

So, go some where to be alone and meditate and or just relax. Again, don't fight it. I't don't change your personality or the person you are.

Check out "Psychic Detectives." on the justice channel. 2, 30 min episodes. Real good.

Hope I helped.

-Sunny.

[D8a]

I've always had an odd sort of ability to feel and sense things, as far back as I can remember. I was the weird little girl who mothers didn't feel comfortable allowing their children to play with because I "knew" too much (like when parents argued, information about people who died in the family, etc). I think over time, I stifled it in part because I figured out social mannerisms and how to keep my trap shut.

I always thought something was wrong with me. In undergrad, I signed up for every free test given out by the psych department and health clinic on campus because I was positive I had some sort of personality disorder that made me feel and sense things that just didn't vibe with my logical self.

Since my uncle died in 2009, it's been a jolt of activity. It's been incredibly difficult for me to control what I feel and sense. Examples: I've called out every pregnancy around me, from very good friends that I haven't talked to in weeks (work/life gets in the way) to coworkers who I am not close to. These women aren't "showing" and some of them I haven't even seen in person but I can feel it, somehow. The other side isn't as sweet. I can feel death now, too. Before someone dies, usually a week before or 24-48 before, I have an absolute mental breakdown. Each and every time this has happened since 2010, someone I am close to, or is close to someone I love has died, unpredictably - heart attack, car accident, etc. I feel like I am going insane and I can often pinpoint what will happen and who it will come through, even if not the exact person. I've thought about the fact I could be crazy. I always text my mother to have a record of what I think, hear, and feel for validation. Last time this happened was at the beginning of the summer back in May. I told my mom we would lose someone on my grandmother's side (perhaps even my grandmother) but I wasn't sure, I just knew it would be through my grandmother and would happen right before or right after my brother's wedding. My grandmother's brother died of cancer on Tuesday before the Saturday wedding. I didn't even know he was sick. I struggle between thinking it's a coincidence, even though this has happened so many times, and thinking I'm not crazy. But regardless, the pain I feel when I know someone is going to die is cripplingly and I don't know how to stop it. I've tried asking the Force/God/Guides/and so on for help but it doesn't always work.

Any advice from anyone like this? I need to link up with someone similar or maybe just be told Im a nut job and go commit myself because I'm not sure a lifetime of this is what I need. I should also add that as a kid, I grew up in a country where there was a civil war going on and briefly passed away, I was only gone for a few minutes before CPR brought me back. Sometimes I think I left a part of me over on the other side that I'm not likely to get back soon.

Help (I need somebody)!

-D8a

Edited September 29, 2015 by D8a