Seeking a reading

[Sorceror123]

I've been told that I can see and I have been developing my intuition but I'm still not sure what's imagination and what's intuition.

I have an issue that's been bothering me for several months now. I've been trying to consult my intuition.

I have a good friend, we met 8.5 years ago, but I've been obsessed with him since 4 years ago. When we met it was the best day of our lives to this day, we liked each other but I was practical about not starting a relationship because I was going to college 3 hours away. So we stayed best friends.

When we found out we both liked each other again 4 years ago, he chose another woman whom I think is another soul mate of his. I began to be obsessed when I got my first psychic readings about this. I was told he was my twin flame, then not my twin flame but a soul mate from past lives who I rejected and that these feelings were coming up again for him. She said we would not end up together because they would have a baby, and I would meet 'the one' 8 months later (did not happen). At one point I felt a very deep sadness, and I'm not sure if it came from my soul or my obsession.

A few months ago I found out from a legitimate healer that the spiritual reader who told me this was lying (she was jealous of me because she was my mother in my past life).

Four months ago I contacted my friend after 6-7 months, being 'like myself' because I was grieved about the brevity of my dad's life and he was the only person who could make me feel better, but I was also being suggestive because I wanted to find out if there was a chance of a relationship between us. He was very friendly but in the middle of messages blocked me, I think because his girlfriend found out we were messaging, and he had to explain to him and agree to block me. But his lack of respectful communication confused me, I'm not sure if it means he thinks I understand I have been thinking of him every day since a few months ago.

I don't think I would be this obsessed with him if there wasn't a soul connection worth exploring. If our relationships are predestined then I have actually been willing to have it changed, for years.

I'm getting the sense that he wants to complete their relationship before starting another one with me.

4 years ago I also got a tarot reading and one card had said that we would not marry, but can tarot card readings predict future relationships?

I could also use a brief general love reading as well right now!