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Been reading UM for about 6 months which has had its severe ups and downs but always been that thing to keep life interesting and keeping my brain from imploding.
Where to start I guess base beliefs/"upbringings" which I'm happy to further go into
. I was raised in an atheist family which used forms of Wiccan (tarot, palmistry) and we all still do. Throughout school in Australia I was mainly made to read the Christian Bible and have done so several times to the point where it drove me away (more to follow). I personally follow agnostic beliefs of religion and I have my parts that I have collated from all over to earn the right to call myself so 
. I use my tarot cards a few times a month, maybe a reading or two per month for my fiancé as well. Lately I have been closed from getting direct answers and more explaining my current situation which is fine by me I understand the questions I ask are more than likely to be shown sooner or later and are not the easiest of things to talk about. My fiancé and I get a lot of similar with different pasts which is nice and a lot of beautiful readings around the time my daughter was born. Not too keen on the whole palmistry scene I can read bits and pieces, I like a bit of spice in my life so I tend not to. I not long ago stumbled across Indigo's and writings on them. This was very interesting because I blatantly show these points in my personality, upon asking my grandmother and mother they were quite happy to confirm it (like within a heartbeat and really creeped me out either one at separate times) but didn't have much to say about the bigger picture and what it lead. Which confuses me in some ways, explains a lot and makes me try keep from doing some of the nastier mood orientated ones around my family which is working great. Have also been informed by a psychic (clairvoyant(excuse spelling)) that felt my presence while reading my mother, that this will be my last life and I will not be returning after this one, this place is the most electrifying place I have ever had the pleasure of visiting (The Crystal Mountains, NSW, Australia).Western Medicine would diagnose me with ADHD and most likely many other things
, I have never and will never take suppressants for it ADHD (tried a diet for it which the school enforced because I wouldn't take the pills all it did was starve me and that why I was too exhausted to being hyper). I understand and control it and quite like doing so, of course there is down sides but tbh I can only pick at two things, willingness to put up with someone’s crap (lose a lot of friends fast) and anxiety (which is merely my palms sweating most of my awake time, not dripping but moist (lol) to say the least). I have an rather vast memory, ability to learn at incredible speeds, ability to process thoughts quite fast in order to keep up with my brain (which at some points can feel myself doing), energy levels can be through the roof and can sustain to be awake for days and not be drowsy and have been told of philosopher like vast intelligence within myself (not really a big fan of boasting). I am very open to alternative ideas and ways of thinking than "the standard recommended way of life" or even my own. I understand that most will have a label for me but, that does not faze me it helps you remember and help you interact. I will stand by my guns and be as stubborn as most until I am proven wrong but in saying that when proving wrong I actually step back and learn in depth about your concept and how I am wrong 
. I also grasp how I understand and make my brain perform in the way I do is something most people wouldn't even dream of thinking about and at the best of times hard to explain.I disapprove of major corporations/major enforced religions and often through a lot of marketing and see underlying points as to how they are trying push/sell something more. I don't think humans should be placed on pedestals "100 stories" in the air and create themselves/their companies to be idolised. In saying that yes I did use the word HUMAN so that must mean I believe in other forms of life, you're damn right, it's ignorant not too and by the vast majority doing so it just proves why no one else wants to talk to us. If you wish to argue that then try going to see your mother in law (said on the generic meaning of most are already screaming just thinking about it). There is a lot of items out there that swing the ball all over the shop when it comes to when, how, why and how many remained, the old civs produced such items which at the best of times just can't be ignored. On that note yes I've watched all of Ancient Aliens and yes I realised half of what they speak of is riddles, loopholes and speculation (isn't most media I don't understand the big phooey over it) which really pisses me off (don't sit there for 30mins-a hour spinning **** about questing then just up and cruise without giving the actual answer and never touching on it again) but there is ALOT of theories that have undeniable proof if you can sift through the ****, but that is simply the world today as said before. I think they never left and more the likely adapted and made half breeds (generic western medicine metal and physical problems (everyone has one apparently)). About the whole "the end" $h!T sorry but that is something that is purely as said before and actually increases my belief that most of the world is ignorant. One thing I learnt from tarot is Death is never the end and the end is never death, both refer to new begins and oh what would you know most of the prophecies predict A BIG CHANGE IN HUMAN HISTORY something they couldn't possibly grasp so they never wrote about it and simply stopped at that point, hoping we would learn their readings and accept change. Now I'm not saying that the world will turn into x-men but my biggest theory and what I follow is there is going to be a change of brain pattern levels some people will literally open to a whole new level of thinking, not all young and old, but a noticeable some. That’s as much as I'll get into it atm because I know people on UM get a bit edgy about this stuff.
I have a family of my own... fiancé, 6 month year old baby. I always consistently always have some alternate theory rumbling around my brain processing itself which I'll tune into quite often. My fiancé is a bit nervous about the entire unknown but open to little bits, as I said I do her cards for her but that's probably as far as it goes. All of my friends are "MEN" so are quite narrow minded sky is blue grass is green poo stinks you know straight up and forward which is fine by me I don't hold it against them lol. So as for avenues of discussion and it's getting to a point and it's not so easy to keep to myself about it and have some interesting sleep talking at some points, I've been pondering about writing this for a while but wanted to get my understandings on certain things a bit more up before posting on threads like a complete rookie. I do apologise if it’s a bit all over the shop that usually what happens when I write for a while. I am fully open to discuss anything I have mentioned or/and more just have to ask me
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