Deep Breath

[PeterJGS]

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Going around my daily routine

Getting myself ready for the day

And about to leave the door

And I’m ok

But then the sun hits my face

And I’m bludgeoned with memories of you

Of happier times

Of you and I

Going back to when we’d sit so peacefully

Just knowing we were in each other’s company

Without having to say a word to one another

Clutching each other’s hand

Beneath the moonlight

We used to get ourselves in such a state

But we’d always end our nights

With a tight embrace

Where you’d tell me you loved me

And I’d always question it with “For how long?”

Which you’d reply “forever”

You said I was everything to you

And that you’d love me until the end of time

And these memories infiltrate my mind

And I struggle to accept this reality

But I have to keep telling myself that you left me

Walked away without a care in the world

Like what we once had never existed

And like we never fell in love

I yearn to wake up when this has all passed

Hoping I can just disregard it

As one of life’s bad experiences

But I know I can never let you go

Not that easily

I know that for some time

You’ll be my waking thought

Everyday

And I’ve accepted that for a while

You’ll be on my mind as I fall asleep

Every night

2 months later and I still don’t understand it

Why you suddenly changed your mind

And left me alone in this world

After what I thought was happiness?

I honestly told myself again and again

That you were my soul mate

And I truly thought that we’d make it

Spending our years growing into old age

Dare I say the thought of marriage

May have crossed my mind?

But now I know I’ll never be so stupid

Believing what I thought was true.

[emily77]

Powerful poem. Honest and raw. I love it.

[Left-Field]

That's rough (not the poem, but the experience). It's something I wish to never have to face again in my life. It's brutal when any reality suddenly becomes an unreality. And then the reality you're left with is that the one you thought was real no longer is. It can crush a person.