Necklace

[The_Sensual_One]

As long as I have been alive something has truly got me into a corner. No one can seem to answer this for me. So, I am here for anyone who can help me with this.

I have a quick question that has been nagging me for years that no one has been able to answer not even myself. Do you see or can tell me why is that every time I wear a cross necklace it either moves and breaks off of me or disappears from around my neck or just ends up lost or thrown away if I don't have it around my neck?

Love and Light

[Tia]

Ok, not a psychic and having a crap week but I'll give it a go.

I feel a male presence around you I see him as a normal height carrying a bit of weigh,t his hair is dark and very thinning on top but thick around the sides and back. I think he may be Italian or something like that, by looks and the angry words he's spitting out. I can't understand what language it is. he's wearing a yellow/ mustard short sleeved polo shirt.

he's angry with you still and it is he that keeps pulling the crosses from you and taking them away. Whatever happened in the past he hasn't let go of it. He feels that you have lived your life in a way that is insulting for you to be wearing a cross, maybe he hated your teen years I don't know what made him so angry with you for him to feel that this goes against all that he believes in. I don't know what you do now if you are a different person, this man may have died before you changed if you did and still carries his anger with him. It's like blasphemy to him.

Any of this make sense? Like I said I'm not a psychic but I just felt and saw those images when I read your post.

[Hamlyn]

As long as I have been alive something has truly got me into a corner. No one can seem to answer this for me. So, I am here for anyone who can help me with this.

I have a quick question that has been nagging me for years that no one has been able to answer not even myself. Do you see or can tell me why is that every time I wear a cross necklace it either moves and breaks off of me or disappears from around my neck or just ends up lost or thrown away if I don't have it around my neck?

Love and Light

You're extremely divided inside about what the cross represents. I think your mixed feelings about it overarch your current lifetime and life purpose as well as other lives.

In summary, you're drawn to the Christ spirit while feeling a need to reject superfluous elements of Christian doctrine.

Namely, it is the issue of shame surrounding sexuality that creates the turbulence in your feelings. On one level, you resonate with (tend to feel) this shame. On another (and I think conscious) level, you make a point of rejecting this shame. A major theme of your inner life is the repudiation of shame. Bitter experience, not just from this life, supplies much motivation for you in this matter. You are conducting a personal and principled rebellion against doctrinaire Christianity.

At the same time, you must see that some part of you tends to internalize this dogmatic shaming about sexuality. Otherwise there would be no emotional energy, nothing to form a reaction against. It would not be an issue.

Also, there is the need you have for the Christ spirit, quite separate from any church or doctrine, or anyone's failed, mistaken, traditional idea of "religion."

These mixed feelings set up an interference pattern within and around you. It is very energetic and turbulent. Parts of you may seem to split off and behave independently.

A peculiar thing about you is that such seemingly "inner" emotional/mental/spiritual activity tends to manifest or materialize in the physical world. So you have some experience with poltergeists. This is the kind of thing that's going on with the cross jewelry. "Part of you" loves the symbol while "another" part despises it (or rather one negative thing that it stands for). The latter part appears to split off from you and do all these shenanigans with the cross: tear it off, lose it, etc.

My impression is that it's really all you. I asked, is this something or someone "outside" that's attempting to thwart your spiritual search? And I get: no, it's you. You're divided inside, and your more or less psychokinetic tendencies cause this division to play out in the physical world.

I say, continue in your spiritual journey. Integrate those "parts" of you that love the good but hate the bad that the cross symbolizes. Accept the salvific spirit, while feeling under NO obligation to honor the false and destructive baggage that men have added onto the term "Christ."

Please let me know how this strikes you. I could be totally imagining all this.

[The_Sensual_One]

Thanks for answering. I feel hopeful. I should probably look more into this. If anyone needs a picture of how I look now, I will gladly do so, only if images help better interpret this situation.

To Tia: I don't know anyone that fits that discription. However, during my teen years I was very corrupted. I regret that. I don't know what happened. I know that what I'm about to tell you may make you skeptical or judge or whatever but it's very true and I have nothing lie about. When I was 10 years old, a creature with red skin, horns, creepy cat like eyes, very tall, shark teeth came to me at night and knew my name. He told me that he would be visiting me soon and I ran and told my father because I was so scared as a child. I didn't understand what was going on but I was frightened. I cried and went to sleep. Around the time I turned 14, I wasn't normal. I could not remember half of things that I said to people or done to them. I do remember having black vision and my father had angered me and I took a knife and starving carving unknown things into my computer desk and I was threatening to kill my father. I didn't strike him but a force wanted me to. I got down on my knees the next day and cried my eyes out to God and prayed and pleaded with him to save me and my soul that I couldn't sleep, I was tired of being tortured at night, I was tired of being haunted by evil forces. The sun shined over me and I felt lighter. I knew he answered me. Then around the age of 18, I had a wreck in 2007. I blacked out at the wheel and 5 of my friends were in the car with me. We all lived but I did die and went to the other side. There, I saw my father who had passed away earlier in that year and I was told that it wasn't my time and that I needed to go back to my body. I did. It took me over a year to try to remember exactly what happened. All my friends said that I blacked out and I wasn't driving fast and there were no cars around me but there was one behind me. I believe that she was an angel. I remember that I was driving and lost conciousness and regained it but had that black vision again and I had no control over my body. Seriously, I had no control. I heard my friends screaming for dear life and I had no control. I noticed that I was smiling and driving with both hands on the wheel with feet on the gas. Inside I was screaming please help. I told my mother and other people that I believed and I know that I was controlled by an evil force that wanted to ruin my happiness and my life. After then, I got baptised and felt lighter again but that didn't last. I begin to get haunted even stronger by evil forces and threatened. I became wild and out of control around 2009 and finally met someone that help me change. I found the light and my soul is pure but I still can't wear a cross. I got a cross recently and the cross disappeared from the necklace. I am dead serious. I am a spiritualist. I am not satanic. I just wanted to know but I do feel it may be from past lives. I had many and the last life I died from a disease. I feel insulted for the fact that crosses never stay on me. I know I am not a bad person. I'm very loving. I talk to God. I talk to my guardian Angels every day and they are always around me. It's just heart breaking. So, this man you see may be from a past life or may be an entity that may have died in this apartment that I live in. I lived here for 10 years in this apartment. It still doesn't make sense why they would hate the cross being on me. I thought that I protected my part of the apartment at least. I burned sage, I protected the doors and everything. So frustrating.

To Hamlyn: To me, a cross makes me feel protected from evil forces. I know the cross over many years have been used in many ways but to me it means protection and healing. I bet if I wore an upside down cross it would probably stay. Which is still very insulting to me. I am pure so this situation will forever haunt me and stress me out til I find out what's keeping me from wearing a cross. Note, I do not remove crosses from me. They simply disappear on me or break.

[jessicajaletta]

I do not claim to be a psychic so I will start off by saying this but, from what you posted it is clear to me that their is a demonic force trying to insert itself into your life, or perhaps just a evil spirit that has latched onto you because, you remind him of someone he knew personally in his life or perhaps he is someone from your own past life that you angered. I did not use to believe in this, but the more I think about things that have happened in my own life, the more I believe that we all have had past life, that would explain why we are instantly attracted to people we meet and instantly feel a bad energy about people we meet.

Have you tried saying aloud or in your head that you apologize for whatever wrong has been done to him and that weren't responsible for anything that happened. I would suggest, perhaps getting in touch with a local priest be picky in your choosing a priest, some priest are not strong enough psychologically to deal with this sort of thing. Lastly, I take it you do believe in GOD so try praying and asking him to shield and protect you in all that you do.

[Tia]

So sorry to hear what has happened to you Feelingz, I may have got the person wrong but I knew there had to be something strong attached around you that was like a blasphemy for a cross around your neck, that's why it keeps being taken away.

The most I've dealt with and that was years ago when I was spiritual really strong was a bad entity, human still but nasty and it took a few attempts to rid it from myself and the house.

I mean you sound like you're doing all the basics things right, but if what you're saying is correct it sounds like you need to get professional help in, a priest or someone. I believe in God but I don't go to church, but in this sort of situation a priest may help.

I'll say this nicely too as I know otherwise you'll get some nasty sceptics say it meanly. Have you had both your physical and psychological health accessed just to be sure that you're 100% ok?

It's worth it as if you are unwell besides receiving treatment you are more of a magnet for lower forms of entities. I do believe that something is happening to you but I don't know what, maybe someone with more experience can come on here with advice, but please get your health checked because if something has been attached to you for so long you're going to need all your strength to do battle and free yourself of it. God bless.

[Hamlyn]

Well, I appear to have been way off! I guessed my reading would make sense to you, but it doesn't.

[Simbi Laveau]

You always lose,what you need most in your life.

I,personally,can no longer wear a cross. I was raised catholic,and I feel like a complete hypocrite wearing one now.Sad but true,as I do like them.I have one made of little silver skulls,I can occasionally wear.

I always lost citrine.Any jewelry i had with citrine in it,lost ,gone,nuked .

Citrine is a positive stone.Its for protection,healing and self esteem.

I could not keep one to save my life,so I had to ask...why ?

Its as if it was repelled away from me,as negative things always surrounded me and my frame or mind at the time.

So something repells the cross from you.Takes your feeling of security away.

I'd suggest having it blessed at a church next time,and say,no one will take you from me this time !

Im not saying it's an evil thing going on.It can just be negative jealous thoughts of nasty people around you ,creating this space,stripping you of things you love.

Just be positive.Get another cross,knowing you won't lose it.

[The_Sensual_One]

Thanks everyone but I did some research and realized that wearing a cross isn't all that good of an idea. When I studied about what a cross really is and when did it come into creation it is actually not a symbol of good. So, me wearing it is a sign of impurity not purity. My soul is pure but not the symbol of the cross. I won't go into debate of this. I have solved my issue. Again, thanks.

Love and Light.

[Inspireddlove]

I know this is a rather old old thread, yet...Personally, the chain to my cross necklace has broke twice now in one week. The first time it happened, I was in a great mood and once it broke, I became very angry. My 7 month olds foot got caught in it the second time when I was leaning over changing his diaper. I became angry again. Not at him, of course, but at the fact I just bought a new chain and it’s broke again in the same week. I got online and typed in google, asking what it could mean, and I came upon this thread. Honestly, when I take a step back and look at my feelings and actions when the necklace broke each time...each time, I was extremely happy and then suddenly angered. This connotation can then be taken into the sense of good and bad. I believe, that by wearing the cross, I am protected from evil spirits. Especially, if it has a Bible verse on it. My life was full of so many negative emotions and feelings before I began wearing the cross and my life became extremely better and more beneficial once I did begin wearing the cross. I believe that it’s simply negative energies being directed towards me and/or evil spirits trying to get to me and they can’t bring me down anymore with the cross present around my neck. So, they’re trying anyway possible to have the cross removed, so they can begin causing turmoil in my life once more. Each to their own, of course, yet that is my personal experience. 

[Piney]

@Inspireddlove

Because you have a deep spiritual belief you have a deep connection with the cross. I'm not a Christian but my stepfather was a staunch Catholic. When his medals were stolen and sold I was livid about it. More livid than I expected. But the cross is just a cross. You protect yourself from bad "woo". It's just a focusing tool.

[rashore]

I'm sorry folks, but it appears the person that first requested the psychic reading hasn't been on in years. And this area of UM is for giving and requesting readings, not sharing experiences.

Welcome to UM inspired May I suggest you post your story in the stories and experiences section, that would probably be the best place for it.