Posted 26 December 2012 - 01:59 AM
Ok, so ever since I saw a terrifying programme on sleep paralysis years ago, i've started experiencing this myself. On the programme, the woman would regularly get a black cloaked faceless person paralyse her and stand over her. Frightening stuff. Ever since then I have been fearful of getting them myself. And sure enough a few years ago I had my first experience, to my relief there was no faceless figure hanging over me, BUT I felt a presence. This morning of all mornings, I suffered my latest and most terrifying episode to date. I woke in my dream, called my partner to wish her and her family a merry christmas, then felt something watching me, I told my partner what I felt and my apprehension. I got out of bed, walked through the sitting room and as I got to the kitchen door, I stopped, attempted to turn around, and I got paralysed solid to the spot. I tried telling my partner but I could just only make a pathetic noise, that grew higher pitched the more distressed I got. She kept asking if I was ok and her voice grew fainter and fainter, as if the volume on my mobile phone was getting turmed down, and I felt it's presence...
luckily only once have I experienced paralysis while being concious, it was earlier this year, amd again I felt the presence...this time I was in bed, on my back, but my eyes were stuck a quarter open..couldn't open or close them, and in the pitch black of my bedroom I could feel it with me. I tried in vain to scream, flail my limbs, close my eyes bit to no avail. it lasted 90 seconds or so, before I fell back asleep, only to wake a short while later with a terrible sense of fear.
I've now had 4 episodes this year, 1 semi concious, 3 in dreams, and I fear this will continue to increase in frequency. My saving grace is that over the years I think I can safely tell when an episode like this will happen. For starters, I need to be conciously aware that I am alone before I fall asleep. I recall a few years ago that my partner had got up before me, so I went back to sleep for a while and then I had one of those dreams. I have never went to bed with her on a nighttime and had one of these dreams. Sje jas never been next to me when I have woke from one of these either.
The second hint I get is I have the sensation that I'm being watched as i'm in my bedroom and getting into/ lying in bed. The third hint is that I feel vulnerable and I get the feeling something is going to happen. I truely hate having these dreams/ experiences, they are terrifying and although i've never felt in danger during these episodes, it's still a frightening experience.
I'm unfortunately sleeping alone again tonight with my partner at her parents for christmas, and I am getting those horrible feelings already that tonight maybe a repeat performance. Only when I go to go to sleep will I know if I will be getting a repeat, but I hope for my own sake that I don't. My git feelings and instincts are never far wrong, bit tonight I really hope is an exception, or I may ja e episode 5 of this year to post tomorrow!