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Posted by Set the Fallen , 28 December 2011 · 397 views

I told you so
So it has come to happen. In my 20 years of life, I have found this terrible death of mine I was promised by a deamon.
I still got 2 and a half year left on the bargine, but this is the start I guess. I probably got a svulst in my head, rather painfull feeling so to say. Docs are worried and going to check my head properly with a machine, I wonder how it will be to die this way though.
As I recalled, the demon showed me how I would die, and it did not feel anything plesent as my whole body feelt electrical in the vision and numb, not able to move and feel this jolt through the body... So for those who though I was lying, in your face damned wanna-be-damned-serious people that hang on this site and though me crazy.  

The demon is real, my visions was real and I will die.
(truth surpase the fools out there. And though I might be able to survive it, the probability is slim considering who is pulling my destiny strings)





Bracket
Dec 28 2011 03:15 AM
Well, that doesn't prove that the demon is real at all.  :huh:  But, i hope it's nothing.
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Bracket
Dec 28 2011 03:38 AM
Did you really delete my comment?  :huh:
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Set the Fallen
Dec 28 2011 03:42 AM

Bracket, on 28 December 2011 - 04:38 AM, said:

Did you really delete my comment?  :huh:
no, it's just that I have to approve of comments.
Some have a tendency to junk me with **** on my blog for some unknown reasons, so I have found it simpler to having to aprove of a comment first instead of having junk floating around.

Oh yeah... it is probably nothing though my head is totally numb on the left side most times, and growing a more painfull pain each day. Nothing to worry about at all.
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Hilander
Dec 28 2011 09:54 PM
I hope it is nothing the doc's can't handle but I truly believe death is not the end.
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Set the Fallen
Dec 28 2011 11:04 PM

Hilander, on 28 December 2011 - 10:54 PM, said:

I hope it is nothing the doc's can't handle but I truly believe death is not the end.
Doc's can handle many things, but it does not feel like it will be easy (considering how painfull it feels).
Death is not the end. Though, for me it would be terrible as I have still to get a book published.
I wanna at least finish the only goal in my life. O.o

If I do not die of this, at least it will be worse than dying, if it is anything like what I saw. Perhaps I will not be the same afterwards... perhaps the demon will leave me and I will be another person. One who does not like writting. It was never my human side which enjoyed writting.
*rambling because I can, and it makes my pain go away some to ramble or writte stuff... unececary rambling is a painkiller somehow*
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John Gille
Dec 29 2011 06:08 AM
@John Gille

Set the Fallen, on 29 December 2011 - 12:04 AM, said:

Doc's can handle many things, but it does not feel like it will be easy (considering how painfull it feels).
Death is not the end. Though, for me it would be terrible as I have still to get a book published.
I wanna at least finish the only goal in my life. O.o

If I do not die of this, at least it will be worse than dying, if it is anything like what I saw. Perhaps I will not be the same afterwards... perhaps the demon will leave me and I will be another person. One who does not like writting. It was never my human side which enjoyed writting.
*rambling because I can, and it makes my pain go away some to ramble or writte stuff... unececary rambling is a painkiller somehow*

Well, of course it looks bad. In France, a famous neurologist, Dr. David Servan-Schreiber, recently died from a brain tumor. He was very positive about the time (more than 10 years) he had left. I have not yet checked if his book is translated in English. i wish you peace and fortitude,
John F. Gille, ufologist
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dreamgoddess11
Dec 29 2011 05:44 PM
How horrid to know "when u will die" hopefully not true. Reminds me of a country song...live like you were dying..  Tim Mcgraw Lyrics: 
He said: "I was in my early forties, with a lot of life before me, An' a moment came that stopped me on a dime. I spent most of the next days, Looking at the x-rays, An' talking 'bout the options an' talkin’ ‘bout sweet time. I asked him when it sank in,That this might really be the real end?How’s it hit you when you get that kind of news?Man whatcha do? An' he said: "I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying.An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,To live like you were dyin'." He said "I was finally the husband,That most the time I wasn’t. An' I became a friend a friend would like to have.And all of a sudden goin' fishin’,Wasn’t such an imposition,And I went three times that year I lost my Dad.Well, I finally read the Good Book,And I took a good long hard look,At what I'd do if I could do it all again,Like tomorrow was a gift....
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Toadie
Dec 30 2011 03:42 AM
We are all going to die so what is your point?
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Set the Fallen
Dec 30 2011 11:10 PM

John Gille, on 29 December 2011 - 07:08 AM, said:

@John Gille

Well, of course it looks bad. In France, a famous neurologist, Dr. David Servan-Schreiber, recently died from a brain tumor. He was very positive about the time (more than 10 years) he had left. I have not yet checked if his book is translated in English. i wish you peace and fortitude,
John F. Gille, ufologist
O.O
Lucky man, getting to publish a book before death.
Thank you, though peace will likely not find me.
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Set the Fallen
Dec 30 2011 11:15 PM

dreamgoddess11, on 29 December 2011 - 06:44 PM, said:

How horrid to know "when u will die" hopefully not true. Reminds me of a country song...live like you were dying..  Tim Mcgraw Lyrics: 
He said: "I was in my early forties, with a lot of life before me, An' a moment came that stopped me on a dime. I spent most of the next days, Looking at the x-rays, An' talking 'bout the options an' talkin’ ‘bout sweet time. I asked him when it sank in,That this might really be the real end?How’s it hit you when you get that kind of news?Man whatcha do? An' he said: "I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying.An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,To live like you were dyin'." He said "I was finally the husband,That most the time I wasn’t. An' I became a friend a friend would like to have.And all of a sudden goin' fishin’,Wasn’t such an imposition,And I went three times that year I lost my Dad.Well, I finally read the Good Book,And I took a good long hard look,At what I'd do if I could do it all again,Like tomorrow was a gift....
Knowing when one will die is not a pleasent thing.
Perhaps if it is a tumor or a brain svulst or something along the line it can be cut out if it's still in a early stage.
... at least he had dreams to follow.
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Set the Fallen
Dec 30 2011 11:17 PM

Toadie, on 30 December 2011 - 04:42 AM, said:

We are all going to die so what is your point?
That I've been told how I would die by a deamon making it a prof on their existence, making me less crazy sadly.
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__R_____
Dec 31 2011 06:08 AM
we are all going to die - as such we all have knowledge of that fact leading to the inevitable fact that no individual is more "doomed to die than any other" - a condition that is only perceived as existing but in fact is impossible to do so.  The person on death row has no more time or future than the person at the supermarket - they have merely put a date on their death, but even then that date is not a secured fact as there are too many variables to calculate.  Also being "published" has nothing to do with success or recognition - just as it has nothing to do with talent.  To call an individual lucky b/c they were published before their death is a bit near sighted as I'm sure any individual would trade being published over being dead - those that say otherwise have not been "lucky" enough to witness death at arms length such as I have.  Also getting published takes more than a mournful early twenty something attitude - it takes overwhelming ability and perseverance. In the publishing world we expect rejection and indifference to our work, anything else would be bizarre - out of the normal. Poe died in a gutter  - he was never "lucky" enough to blog about it.  Also I get that seeming odd may build some sort of intrigue behind your writing but maybe you shouldn't let grammar, tone, and style fall victim to rash personality quirks.  If Kafka had turned in manuscripts rife with mistakes he would have been remembered as just another upset insurance manual writer and not as a founder of the surreal.  Just remember what Camus observed, even a man condemned to die will groom himself and exercise.  As odd as this may be what is more odd is our perception that he is any more or less at death's door than ourselves.
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Set the Fallen
Dec 31 2011 10:32 PM

f1gtr33, on 31 December 2011 - 07:08 AM, said:

we are all going to die - as such we all have knowledge of that fact leading to the inevitable fact that no individual is more "doomed to die than any other" - a condition that is only perceived as existing but in fact is impossible to do so.  The person on death row has no more time or future than the person at the supermarket - they have merely put a date on their death, but even then that date is not a secured fact as there are too many variables to calculate.  Also being "published" has nothing to do with success or recognition - just as it has nothing to do with talent.  To call an individual lucky b/c they were published before their death is a bit near sighted as I'm sure any individual would trade being published over being dead - those that say otherwise have not been "lucky" enough to witness death at arms length such as I have.  Also getting published takes more than a mournful early twenty something attitude - it takes overwhelming ability and perseverance. In the publishing world we expect rejection and indifference to our work, anything else would be bizarre - out of the normal. Poe died in a gutter  - he was never "lucky" enough to blog about it.  Also I get that seeming odd may build some sort of intrigue behind your writing but maybe you shouldn't let grammar, tone, and style fall victim to rash personality quirks.  If Kafka had turned in manuscripts rife with mistakes he would have been remembered as just another upset insurance manual writer and not as a founder of the surreal.  Just remember what Camus observed, even a man condemned to die will groom himself and exercise.  As odd as this may be what is more odd is our perception that he is any more or less at death's door than ourselves.
Each is born to die. A saying of mine.
But I'd rather not have death this way even so. It is making it hard to writte as I used to, so that is why I say so. I might never get to publish what I want to the way I want to. For that man he is lucky to be able to publish something of his own the way he want it. Death... I have witness it many times, and it's a simple thing and often swift. I would prefer dying such a way rather than dying a slow death with agony.
Poe was not lucky, but somehow his death was not in wain. He might have had no one to blog to, but so it was at that time, this is now though, and this is were we are. (****, my head hurts when I think like this)

If I am condemned to die I want to write without feeling a headach when I am thinking of how to writte the next line because I dive into it logically... (**** my head hurts again) you see, I do not use my right side much for writing, it is my left side, and that side is killing me with pain when I try to use it. Langua, spelling... the man who got his book published, he was lucky for he was not affected as I am right now. He probably did not feel pain in his head like this.

Death is not a door, but a start of something more, it's not a door but a freeing of sorts.  (arg head pain)
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