[Cassandra.]

Hi, I just registered to get peoples opinion's on this, so if I posted this in the wrong catagory, I'm sorry.
I need to know what people think of this, is it a UFO? or is it just some star?

A few days ago, I believe it was the 19th, I was sitting on the couch alone, listening to my music, looking out of the window like I usually do. (It was 11pm, I believe, if you need to know the time)
The sky was completely dark, until about 11.10pm or something, a VERY bright orange-ish/yellow-ish star looking object appeared. It was over my neighbors house, and, possibly because of my own paranoia, it felt like it was watching me. If I stared at the object, it looked like it was pulsing? with different colors. I can't exactly explain it, but if I stared at it for too long, I would feel..odd. I watched it for about ten minutes, and for awhile I just thought to myself 'I have to get up, I have to show this to someone', but it was like I couldn't, like I was frozen. I believe the thing was, if it was moving at all, slightly bobbing up and down. It wasn't hovering like most UFO cases, it was just floating there, over my neighbors house. (It was exactly MY neighbors house, I believe it was the house behind my neighbors house. Just thought I'd clear that up.) As I stated, I wanted to tell someone, but I was frozen in a sense. I finally worked up the strength, I guess you could say, and ran to my mothers room to try to show her.
I was gone for about 15-30 seconds, if that, and when I got back, it was gone. Not even a trace of it, anywhere. As I went closer to the window, I looked up, and this has got to be the weirdest part. I saw a plane, with a green light at the end of it, a flashing green light, and I saw my light, the orange light, on the nose of the plane, but the plane was turned a different way, it was moving towards the right, and I could see the side of the plane. I wondered how a plane could turn that fast around, and then start to move. And why? Why would the plane be 'staring' at me? I also wondered why the plane had 'my' light on the nose of it. Of course, my family didn't exactly believe that it was a UFO, hell, I'm not even sure if I believe that fully, but it was odd. I wanted more information, so I talked to my mothers friend, who has been a pilot for awhile now. I asked him about the lights on planes and helicopters, and he said that every human-flying object, (planes, helicopters, ect.) have atleast two lights, and the most common colored lights on the objects are white, green, and red, there aren't usually any orange-colored lights. If I remember correctly, I asked him if a plane could go from looking straight at you, to making somewhat of a u-bie, in about 15-30 seconds. I believe he said that it's not possible, it would take longer. I asked him about weather balloons as well, he said they don't shoot them off at night usually. (Night, as in, like, 8-11pm) I told him about my 'encounter' and he had no explaination for it. Before this happened, I would wake up with scars and bruises on my legs, and have no idea where they came from. I will pass out at the same exact time on certain days, and 'sleep walk', not remembering anything I did. I hear voices in my head, especially at night. The voices have died down a bit, but I don't know what to make of them. I just assumed that it was either my imagination, or that my house was haunted. A few monthes ago, I believe, I was listening to my music, and it just turned into this static-y sound. When I showed my sister this, it was fine. When I tried it again, when my sister was gone, it did the same static-y noise. Things will break, fall, or turn off when I walk near them, especially when I was younger, and I would feel things touching me, especially when I'm alone. I always feel like I'm being watched, and I don't want to go outside. I used to be very active, and wanted to play with everyone, but for a few years now, I can't even go outside. I'm too afraid of what could get me. I read about these alien abduction stories a lot, and they fascinate me, but at the same time, scare the hell out of me. I've actually thought that I've been abducted by aliens, but I don't want to accept that, because it doesn't seem true, it's like I'm in denial. I've told my family, and they all think I'm either insane, or that it's not true, and that they don't want me. (they, as in, the aliens.) My family has seen odd things in the skies as well, and at the same age. My mother and I have the same, intense fear of alien abduction. I'm rambling, I meant to only talk about the 'UFO', so I'm sorry about that. I feel I shouldn't be talking about this, all while I was typing this out, I felt paranoid and sick. Could anybody, please, make sense of what this is? I'm still quite young, why would they want a child? I feel like I'm going insane.

Thank you in advance.

[Ebonykrow]

My first question is, have you been to see a doctor about the voices? It's not uncommon for people to hurt themselves in their sleep, especially if you also have a habit of sleep walking. You should go see someone about both things, you can get medication to help your brain output chemicals that will stop your moving as you sleep.

I don't know what to say about the light or the plane, but the first thing I thought of was a planet or a reflection. If you were causing the reflection in some way, that would explain why it was gone when you got back, or why it seemed to move when you found it again.

This post has been edited by Ebonykrow: 25 October 2009 - 01:37 PM

[Cassandra.]

I wanted to go to a doctor, however, doctor's cost money, which is something I unfortunately don't have.
What's weird about the sleepwalking is I only do it when I pass out, and I will just randomly pass out at 5am every few months or so.
Would you know off of the top of your head what type of medication I could get? And do you know if it stops paranoia?
It was dark where I was sitting, the hallway light, and the kitchen light were both off, so I don't think it could be a reflection.

Thanks.

[SupeRgirl]

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I feel like I'm going insane.

I would advise that you stop trying to figure it all out. I couldn't help but noticed that you are connecting several things together where there is no real evidence that they are in fact connected events. But just random happenings. By making it all into one big thing while feeling the way you are, it can only be building everything up in your mind to be far bigger than it is.

Just give your mind a break from it and try do something to distract yourself from analysing this. You are unlikely to get any answers as to what and why. So don't drive yourself insane over it.

[Cassandra.]

The sad thing is, I know that I should stop looking for answers and just try to stop over analysing it like you mentioned , however, it's like I can't because family members, especially my sister, enjoy bringing it up and teasing me about it, even when I try to tell them that they are not helping the situation, so it reminds me of the incidents, and 'makes' me think about it, and why it could be happening. It's extremely annoying. I also feel like I'm insane due to the fact that, once again, my sister loves reminding me that I am a complete and utter freak, who will probably one day go on a killing rampage.

Thank you for your advice though, I appreciate it.

[SupeRgirl]

Cassandra., on 26 October 2009 - 01:03 AM, said:

The sad thing is, I know that I should stop looking for answers and just try to stop over analysing it like you mentioned , however, it's like I can't because family members, especially my sister, enjoy bringing it up and teasing me about it, even when I try to tell them that they are not helping the situation, so it reminds me of the incidents, and 'makes' me think about it, and why it could be happening. It's extremely annoying. I also feel like I'm insane due to the fact that, once again, my sister loves reminding me that I am a complete and utter freak, who will probably one day go on a killing rampage.

Thank you for your advice though, I appreciate it.

Your sister sounds unfair in her teasing, but you can work at stopping yourself connecting everything together. It's a common thing that people tend to do when they are dealing with the unknown. The mind naturally drives to make patterns and sense out of events that it can not place. So you are by no means insane or losing it. But with awareness of this and making a mental effort to treat all these incidences as just incidences that happened. Sometimes there are no explanations. Sometimes explanations come later.

But for now just take these things for what they are, and don't let them wind you up

[Cassandra.]

Yes, it is quite unfair, however no one seems to care much about it, or how it could affect me.
As I seem to need answers to everything unusual that happens to me, I hope the explanations come at a later time.
Thank you very much for your advice, and I will try to 'fix' my mind.

[Paranormalcy]

The best way to do that, if you absolutely can't "let it go", is to sit down and take some deep breaths, and first off, understand that you're not likely to understand all of what is going on, if anything at all, or how any of it fits together, if at all, so just throw that out the window, and work on understanding what seems the most easily explained and work your way backward. ONE THING at a time.

My 28 year old cousin, ever since I used to watch all the stuff on TV and read about it back in the early to mid 90s, is creeped out by shows or stories or thoughts about "alien abduction" to the point he still won't watch Communion with me - and he's been in prison for four years and isn't religious. But I absolutely think nothing has ever happened to him of that sort, I think I just caught him at an impressionable time in his life with my interest and it basically scarred him, much like I have a clown phobia type thing.

The light and plane thing is interesting and I don't know much of what to tell you except/unless you were alseep or "near" being so, either direction, and especially with the passing out and sleepwalking - we can't give any sort of medical advice on here so it would be best not to ask about any aspect of that, though one thing you might consider looking into is sleep paralysis and hypnogogic hallucinations, all of which are natural things that happen to some people now and then, as it sounds like it has a lot of similarities, or at least some of the features, you mention.

But you're not a "freak", that's negative thinking and not going to help you any, you're just someone who is having experiences they don't understand and is looking for answers, and who has family who, like most, also don't understand what (if anything) is going on, and some of them are made uncomfortable by it, and some younger members will poke fun at you - that's just life, that part, and you shouldn't be upset by that type of thing in most cases, we pretty much all get treatment from everybody when we have what we feel are "large" issues.

[QuasiBeliever]

Planes can look pretty strange depending on what vantage point you're viewing them from. Having lived around ten miles from an air force base for several years now, I can attest to the fact that they do indeed look to be something odd at first if you're seeing them from a certain angle. The lights appear brighter, and can sometimes appear to be not moving. As for your mother's friend who says there are no orange/amber colored lights, I've seen several planes with lights like that. I'm not saying that your sighting was 100% identifiable as a plane, but it seems like a plausible explanation.

As for hearing voices; I do, too. It's a common side effect of being tired. The strange thing is that I've only begun hearing them for the past couple years now, and it's always at night when I'm sleepy. They can be pretty startling at first and some are quite loud, but rest assured, they are perfectly common and nothing really out of the ordinary. It's become so commonplace that I hear them almost every night now and just ignore them.

I don't know anything about you personally so I won't pretend to know what the "touching" was when you were younger; could be a number of things. If you were especially paranoid as a child, it seems as though any and everything is out to get you and that anything that brushes against you is something paranormal.

[Cassandra.]

QuasiBeliever;
Do you think it could have been a burned out star (I think that's what they are called)? I was thinking that it could also be Venus, I believe Venus is a red-ish color, and very bright.

I'm usually up at night, and I'll hear things in the hallway. I actually heard a voice say 'she knows' or 'she hears' in the hallway once. Needless to say, I didn't sleep that night.
How about gibberish type voices? I hear those often as well.

I wasn't THAT paranoid, but I was, and still am pretty messed up. I'm slowly growing out of the paranoid phase, it seems. But given the fact that I had somewhat of a traumatizing childhood, you can't fully blame me for my paranoia. (Not saying you were)
Thanks for your reply.



Paranormalcy;
I'll have to try that when I get some free time.
Thanks.

I feel your cousin's pain, however, I enjoy reading about alien abduction stories, and watching the movies, yet I'm absolutely terrified of it happening to me. I never understood why I would torture myself like so. There are times I want it to happen to me, however. If you hate clowns, you'd hate my desktop background, haha.

The funny thing about that is I have looked into the sleep paralysis thing, isn't that when you can't move, and start hallucating?

The odd thing is that they do understand where I'm coming from, they've had experiences like this, however, I was always the punching bag. My sister is seven years old than I am, I thought you grew out of the 'teasing your siblings' phase when you were about 18? Haha.
Thank you again for your advice, I truly appreciate it.

[QuasiBeliever]

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QuasiBeliever;
Do you think it could have been a burned out star (I think that's what they are called)? I was thinking that it could also be Venus, I believe Venus is a red-ish color, and very bright.

I'm usually up at night, and I'll hear things in the hallway. I actually heard a voice say 'she knows' or 'she hears' in the hallway once. Needless to say, I didn't sleep that night.
How about gibberish type voices? I hear those often as well.

I wasn't THAT paranoid, but I was, and still am pretty messed up. I'm slowly growing out of the paranoid phase, it seems. But given the fact that I had somewhat of a traumatizing childhood, you can't fully blame me for my paranoia. (Not saying you were)
Thanks for your reply.

The burned out star or Venus explanation is another good one; didn't really think of that.

As for the voices, yes, I hear all kinds of stuff. Sometimes I'll hear myself saying things; sometimes my friends, relatives or parents; random gibberish; "other" voices saying things; loud slamming sounds that sometimes wakes me up, etc. They scared me at first until I read from various sources that this phenomenon is very common when one is tired and is frankly nothing to worry about.

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The funny thing about that is I have looked into the sleep paralysis thing, isn't that when you can't move, and start hallucating?

To an extent, yes; that's the most common scenario. However, I've also recently learned that sleep paralysis can occur when the person isn't really fully aware that they're sleeping or on the verge of sleep. This is especially the case if said person is prone to any sort of sleep disorder.

[Cassandra.]

It always feels like you're the only one in the world who hears voices in your head, which makes you even more paranoid and afraid, atleast, that's how I felt.
Thanks for your reply.

I'm not quite sure if I have a sleep disorder, as I haven't been to any type of doctor in ages. I believe I have Insomnia, however.

[Ebonykrow]

If you're prone to sleep walking as well as insomnia, I would say yes, you do have some sort of sleep disorder. You could look around your area for a free clinic? Some places have those.

[Cassandra.]

I'll try to look for a free clinic close by, then.
They will take patients of all ages, right?

[Paranormalcy]

Probably, most do, or they should be able to direct you to one who will - healthcare professionals usually cooperate and keep in contact with each other. You could also call them to begin with to see what all criteria is needed, papers provided, etc. as that was my experience, I had to have a number of papers of different kinds.