'It's a bit like Yasser Marrowfat winning the Nobel prize for Peace. You know, behave like a right bollix, then stop, then expect everyone to tell you you're great ...' 'This is how it is with your children. You hold all the versions of them there ever were, simultaneously in your heart'. 'I was trapped in being alive and I thought my head would burst from the horror of it. My soul felt as if it was held against a naked flame. I was 8,0oo miles behind my face and the distance was too vast for my voice to make it through.'