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[Kaeto]

Hey, everyone.
Long time reader and occasional poster here.

Forewarning: This may sound ridiculous, but I can only hope that someone SOMEWHERE has answers for me.

The first time I had contact with this thing, I suppose you could call it an entity but I don't know if that's right, was when I was 5 years old. I was living in New Jersey with my very large family in a very small house. I shared a room with two of my sisters and my home life was less than desirable at the time. My brother was battling an addiction to heroin (which he later lost,) my father was an abusive alcoholic, and we lived in a very bad neighborhood that since has been cleaned up.

I was lying in bed, trying to go to sleep. I remember listening to my parents fight. I was nowhere near asleep when I heard "Katie. Katie." It sounded like my brother, who I was very close to at the time. I called out his name and the voice responded with "I'm under your bed. Dad's looking for me." It proceeded to tell me to come under the bed with it. Being terrified of the dark like most children, I told him that I couldn't, and he should just go to his room, Dad would calm down and we'd be OK. I then covered my head with the blanket, tucked it around me and fell asleep eventually.

This would happen periodically over the next two years, always randomly and I always refused to come to it. It wasn't always claiming to be my brother, but I think the thing favored that form because my brother was my world. Just before my eighth birthday it stopped suddenly. And I figured it was OK.

When I turned 11, we moved from New Jersey to Pennsylvania to start over. My dad had stopped drinking and everything seemed alright.

The house we moved into had a bad feeling about it. My family that visited were pushed, bitten, tripped and grabbed. All at different times. We only lived there for about 8 months, for the sake of brevity I'll just list the following details:

1.My dad started drinking again, claiming that the screams from the woods wouldn't stop.
2.Everyone who listened could hear what sounded like the house breathing.
3.Strange noises, lights and shapes could be seen in the surrounding woods and the valley below.

Once we moved into our next house, the thing I had heard as a child came back. This time in force. I heard foot steps behind me everywhere I went. School, the store, my bedroom, everywhere. I would hear what sounded like something pacing along the side of my bed, but I refused to look at it, I honestly didn't want to see it.

During the winter of 9th grade I invited one of my friends over. She, who we will call "Rebecca," my older sister "Elisabeth," and I were sitting on my bed. At the time, I had a futon which was folded into couch-mode and we had a blanket over our laps (this is important,) and our feet were just over the edge. At the same time all of us started screaming about something grabbing our feet. We literally began talking at the same time, so I don't think we were playing off each other. I can't say for them, but I know what I had felt.

About a month later on Christmas Eve I was walking to my room, ignoring the steps I heard behind me. I looked into my room to feel for the light switch because I retained my fear of the dark. I looked at my bed and saw it. This thing was sitting on my bed. It's feet on the bed with it's knees bent. The knees were above it's head, I don't remember seeing it's eyes. Not even with the light from the hall. I pulled my hand back and took off, falling down half the stairs. I then joined my dad on the couch until the sun came up. This was also the last Christmas Eve I had with my father before he died.

For the next 6 months I slept with my younger sister. I refused to go into my room alone. I didn't feel safe in my house. If I was alone, I was on the phone.

Two weeks before my birthday that year, my father died. Two months after my birthday, my best friend died. At that point in my life, the experiences grew more frequent. I felt smothered, I felt entirely paranoid verging on the point of crazy. I moved out of my house and spent the next two years deep into drugs. Cocaine and Delauded were my life. The encounters didn't stop, but grew less frequent.

The apartment I was living in with my friends and boyfriend at the time was on the ground floor of a house. The moment that stands out the most was on a summer night during a moment of clarity. I had been clean for about a week, and we were all going to bed in the living room. There were 7 of us there. I was sleeping on the floor. Just about all of us were asleep when there was a scratching at the door. We thought it was O'Malley, our cat. He had been using the apartment as a litter box so we left him outside that night. Refusing to let him in, we went back to sleep.

In the morning my friends and I stepped outside for a smoke and coffee, I put my foot out the door and tripped. Next to the door there was a hole that was a hole that was about 2 feet deep and 1 1/2 feet wide. We made a joke about badgers and ignored it. (I know we don't have badgers. It was a running joke at the time.)

A few months later I moved out and got my GED. I started college in Philadelphia, where I am now. My apartment is across from an abandoned building. This city has seen better days. For the past 6 months I've heard the foot steps again. I've seen shadows that I can't explain.

My roommate is a 5th generation Pagan and claims to be sensitive to beings. Not just spirits, but beings. She always is warning me about the thing that follows me. It has a name but she won't say it, so I'm not sure if it's true. I never told her about it. She said it wants me. I don't know what that means.

Three hours ago (give or take) we were sitting in our room when she froze and looked out the window. On the building across the street you could make out the shape (barely) of the thing I saw on my bed, perched on the roof.

I have no idea what this is. I don't know what's going on. But I want it to stop. I can't live like this. I need it to stop but I don't know what to do.

Also, before this is brought up, I have no history of mental health disorders. I have very mild Asperger's syndrome, but that only really bothers my social interaction, so I don't think that has much to do with it.

If anyone has had a similar experience, can think of a solution or cause PLEASE let me know.

[Xanthurion2]

first, the scientific version: stress induced hallucinations maybe. i don't know about the hole in the apartment but the rest could be that but i'm no expert.

second, the paranormal: i've heard that demons (doesn't have to be the religious kind) or other malicious spirits can develop a liking to a certain person and follow them around so maybe that's it. in that case i would ask your friend to tell you what she knows or at least help you find a way to get rid of it.

solutions: therapy, exorcism or stop believing in it.

i hope that helps

ps. i'm sorry you've had such a tough life, maybe it will get better.

[Kaeto]

Xanthurion2, on 06 August 2011 - 07:52 AM, said:

first, the scientific version: stress induced hallucinations maybe. i don't know about the hole in the apartment but the rest could be that but i'm no expert.

second, the paranormal: i've heard that demons (doesn't have to be the religious kind) or other malicious spirits can develop a liking to a certain person and follow them around so maybe that's it. in that case i would ask your friend to tell you what she knows or at least help you find a way to get rid of it.

solutions: therapy, exorcism or stop believing in it.

i hope that helps

ps. i'm sorry you've had such a tough life, maybe it will get better.

Hallucinations were my original thought (obviously when I got older and over the monster-under-the-bed phase,)
which was why I was assessed (of my own accord) for any psychiatric disorder my doctor could think of. For some reason we never thought about stress. That's actually what I wanted to hear, since I'm sure it's easier to deal with. But the fact that my roommate noticed it bothered me.

I'm going to take your advice and try to ignore and forget about it.

And I'm sure worse things have happened to better people. But thank you.

[Xanthurion2]

you're welcome. i'm always glad to help

[Rafterman]

Kaeto, on 06 August 2011 - 06:51 AM, said:

Also, before this is brought up, I have no history of mental health disorders. I have very mild Asperger's syndrome, but that only really bothers my social interaction, so I don't think that has much to do with it.

To the contrary, I would argue that you have a very LONG history of mental health disorders and you should have been under a doctor's care for the past several years.

My recommendation would be to stop listening to your "pagan" roomate and seek professional help immediately.

[bulveye]

I saw things when I was younger, they would visit me during the night. As I got older I became bolder and less afraid of them and also read about sleep paralysis which explains some of the things I saw but not all of them. I found they never appear if there is light, which is why it had to hide under your bed. I saw one tucked into the corner of my bedroom cupboard once but it would not come out.

I think you need to get some daylight bulbs and put them all round your house, also buy a small powerful flash light, I use one of these:- http://www.fenixligh...oduct.asp?id=79

It has an intense super bright white light. I carry it with me and keep it next to my bed. The knowledge that it is there makes me feel unafraid and with out fear these strange entities have little or no strength and the light also causes them to lose strength. I've not seen one for a long long time now.

And also, next time it is there tell it in a forceful voice to go away and leave you alone.

[Kaeto]

Rafterman, on 06 August 2011 - 02:10 PM, said:

To the contrary, I would argue that you have a very LONG history of mental health disorders and you should have been under a doctor's care for the past several years.

My recommendation would be to stop listening to your "pagan" roomate and seek professional help immediately.

Actually, Rafter, I've sought professional help several times and have been evaluated and I'm perfectly sane. Otherwise I wouldn't have made that claim. So, dare I say that was uncalled for and counter productive?

[0011235813]

OK OP, this just screams minor demon (not religious belongs to Lucifer fallen-angel thing). This thing isn't human and seems to hate humans (well, anything alive really) whatever it is,  it's malicious and you really should get rid of it.

Usualy, I would suggest you try communicating with whatever is following you, but not in this case. You can be reasonably sure it's a demon, and it wants nothing but to harm you, and trying to communicate with it could be dangerous. In this case, I reccomend you confront the thing with the aid of other people. You could try an excorsism (doesn't matter what religion) but you really should confront the thing. Though thinking it doesn't exist might work, it's so weak that denying it exists could probably kill it.

The thing clearly preys on moments of weakness, and there's a direct correlation between it and the bad things happening in your life. Chances are, getting rid of it will make your life much easier.

Hope to hear from you!

[Kaeto]

0011235813, on 06 August 2011 - 07:23 PM, said:

OK OP, this just screams minor demon (not religious belongs to Lucifer fallen-angel thing). This thing isn't human and seems to hate humans (well, anything alive really) whatever it is,  it's malicious and you really should get rid of it.

Usualy, I would suggest you try communicating with whatever is following you, but not in this case. You can be reasonably sure it's a demon, and it wants nothing but to harm you, and trying to communicate with it could be dangerous. In this case, I reccomend you confront the thing with the aid of other people. You could try an excorsism (doesn't matter what religion) but you really should confront the thing. Though thinking it doesn't exist might work, it's so weak that denying it exists could probably kill it.

The thing clearly preys on moments of weakness, and there's a direct correlation between it and the bad things happening in your life. Chances are, getting rid of it will make your life much easier.

Hope to hear from you!

Alright, so two plans!
First being that I'll ignore it. And if it goes away, fantastic. Job well done.
Plan B would be exorcism, as an if-all-else-fails sort of way.
I really hope that denying it exists is really a viable option. I think it is, but
you never know.
I'll keep you all posted, though.

[0011235813]

Kaeto, on 06 August 2011 - 07:33 PM, said:

Alright, so two plans!
First being that I'll ignore it. And if it goes away, fantastic. Job well done.
Plan B would be exorcism, as an if-all-else-fails sort of way.
I really hope that denying it exists is really a viable option. I think it is, but








you never know.
I'll keep you all posted, though.

Be glad it's very weak, could have been something much stronger.

Maybe my post was a little confusing; I also think you should try direct confrontation (like when you see it, or it starts tapping or scratching). Expect it to be scary.

Is it there in the room with you OP?

[Kaeto]

0011235813, on 06 August 2011 - 07:42 PM, said:

Be glad it's very weak, could have been something much stronger.

Maybe my post was a little confusing; I also think you should try direct confrontation (like when you see it, or it starts tapping or scratching). Expect it to be scary.

Is it there in the room with you OP?

I don't believe so. It's usually just a little after dark when it comes now. We have about an hour or two...

[Rafterman]

Kaeto, on 06 August 2011 - 04:03 PM, said:

Actually, Rafter, I've sought professional help several times and have been evaluated and I'm perfectly sane. Otherwise I wouldn't have made that claim. So, dare I say that was uncalled for and counter productive?

Being "sane" has nothing to do with it.  Someone can be "sane" and still have numerous mental health issues.  And then there is your admitted substance abuse problems.

[0011235813]

Rafterman, on 07 August 2011 - 01:43 PM, said:

Being "sane" has nothing to do with it.  Someone can be "sane" and still have numerous mental health issues.  And then there is your admitted substance abuse problems.

First of all, your comment is offensive, annoying and totally unhelpful.
Second of all, it doesn't make any sense;
IF OTHER PEOPLE CAN SEE IT, HOW ON EARTH CAN IT BE RELATED TO MENTAL ILLNESS??!!!!

[Kaeto]

Alright, ignoring Rafter and updating.

Last night neither my roommate nor I saw anything, but we both felt uneasy.
This could just have been from seeing whatever we saw the other night, but I don't know.
However, we both are now experiencing severe headaches. Again, I don't know if this
is related, but it definitely gets worse when either of us begin feeling anything.
My other roommate (who has a bedroom about 25 feet from ours,)told me she felt something sit down
on her bed last night, but didn't see anything. She knows nothing about this, so unless Roommate1 told her,
I guess we can rule out previous knowledge biasing her claim.

[Nessa10]

Hi Kaeto,
First I want to say I know how you feel. I have had horrific dreams that demons are trying to posses me for years. Since I was a very small child I have been afraid of the dark. I have seen demon red eyes in my closet before also. But the main thing was all of the weird noises. Like something flying around. I won't go into a lot of detail. But to relate to you. I literally thought I was crazy . I considered, am I skytzo? I wanted help so I got familiar with the psychic Sylvia brown. She says you should tell the 'thing' to go away in a serious voice. I did just that and it went away . Things do still bother me but never like that. Now I have told them to leave I usually don't have episodes but every 3 or 4 months. You probably know some people harbor more kinetic energy than others. Brown says this makes them a receptor for spirits. Maybewe are those people. She also said lights make them go away. I always sleep with a little light on. Please keep us updated. I'm glad I have someone to relate to. Good luck...