There is a process called soul retreival. If you are not perusing modern medicine, a soul
Retrieval will take back part of what your tough child hood and this thing has taken.
If you need help..... Usually shaman is your vest bet. They are not bound by dogmas like others are. And will seek any solution available.
A therapists is a good idea to. A therapist can give you tools to deal with everything you have been through and be a trusted non involved friend.
You may even try a process called EMDR. ( Eye movement desentizization reprocessing) it's not unlike some shamanic practices, but it is a modern psychotherapy.
If you deal with the stress of the past, you are going to better equipped to meet this thing face to face.
Pm me any time if you want some strategies or help,
Good luck...,, and remember EMDR.... Ask your therapist about it.
Oh..... Stay away from the drugs. If you think it's bad now keep using and you are in for a nightmare of a life.
Edited by Seeker79, 11 August 2011 - 07:35 PM.