I was off a bit. It's not what you were missing from childhood, it's what you are trying to get back. It makes perfect sense now.
Her: feelingz, you are trying to replace things inside of you that your father provided. It might be hard to see, but it's the truth. No man is ever going to live up to him. I'm so sorry this pain is still with you, but I can assure you he is still looking out for you just as vigilant as he used to.
The guides want me to post parts of our conversations, so that you can do some self reflection. Please feelingz. Dont think I am attacking you... But the turbulence in you is self evident. Healing starts with self revelation.
"For several months now my fiancee and I have been hearing the sounds of a baby
Hey Seeker, I have a new question:
Question: Is there a bundle of joy arriving inside of me soon?
My depression been when I was a teenager and progressed after the death of my father
So, over time I had to close off my feelings to protect myself from violence. I use to go through that when my father was alive.
When he was alive he was a very strict parent that never let me go out, so I was sheltered but he was great at providing everything for me. There were no money issues. I could get what I wanted with no problems. He was wealthy. Til he died in front of my eyes (which I knew he was gonna die cus I have that ability to tell when a person is gonna die). Everything went downhill for my whole family.
Self destruction makes me think of completely snapping but I'm at a calm ever since I shut down my thoughts and emotions except for contentment.
Yes. My fiancee is the father of my child
Question: Will I cheat on my spouse with another man and end up getting pregnant by this man?"
Do you see feelingz?