Alij, check out "Anvil's"(bLu3 de 3n3rgy is the alias, now) post #4463 on page 289. It stood out to me, and feel it's pertinent to your last post.
Thank you I did check this out. And this is something I have read and tried before...although I always feel its just stuff Im making up in my head-tho I DO want to tell about an experience with meditating.
I wont go through how long before I got to this point or anything though I did read a few books explaining you may begin or feel you are just making stuff up but to just go with it because at somepoint you really wont be making it up.....Now...
Once when I was trying I used a youtube video audio to help-it was basically a voice walking you through breathing and relaxing and up to a point in meditating then the rest was up to you.
It walked you up to a point where you go into the woods to an open medow or open area and then was to turn to see your guide......in my mind, or meditating this is what I saw....
I saw myself walk through an opening in the woods, that closed after I entered. I walked down this limited light path with trees around me till I came to an open area with bright white light shinning through, water in the center, almost like a spring or a hot sring (without the steem) I can't make out all the spirits, or beings I saw-but it was like they were all around this water, facing me. Maybe....7 or so? a handful at least there were many and its was like I was just amazed at so many there I couldn't pin point any certain one. (I do feel like I saw this older lady, one of which who resembled either my great aunt or great grandmother, and they were twins too....with a man Im asuming whom they were married to in this life before they past) There was a rock, big enough to stand on for one person at the front of this water in the center.
When I turned to see my supposed guide, I saw this cat like woman dressed in white-it made me think egyption style clothes. She had a cat ears at the top, curly hair, and her eyes stayed closed-like just a line BUT she smiled the whole time. She walked to water and moved her hand over it. As if signaling for me to come to the water and look. There was no words at all spoken durring this, as if all was mental for me. I walked over and leaned to look at the water and saw what I thought was my reflection. But this woman I saw, had my (natural hair color, and eye color) with a blue veil over her face. Her expressions matched mine like a mirror. I didn't think I just looked and was in kind of an awe state. I stood up and looked at this cat like woman who was still smiling with her eyes closed.
I dont remember if she walked off or what, but another woman appeared. Much like what I saw in the water reflection. Long hair, straight-with a veil..almost like a genie outfit (from I dream of genie) or a belly dancer. She had pants, and it was either pink or red-not blue like my reflection. She had so much energy, so much life. I could tell she was smiling even through her veil. Her eyes told me. She jumped on this rock, in front of me and mid point in front of all the other spirits behind her around the water.
She this motion....with her arms.....this energy of some sort...or light or something came from her as if comming to me. Then she jumped-my eyes followed her. She jumped in a tree and I had to turn my back to the water to see her. My attention was just on her. She bent down, knealing almost and just looked at me-and Im sure smiling to. I got this emidiate sense or feeling that she was saying "Even when you don't see me, I'm still here with you always." then jumped off into the woods deeper. She was so fast it was like just swipes of light or color then I didn't see her anymore.
I looked at the catlike woman once more, still smiling with her eyes closed and saw all the spirits. Some were looking at me, some were having conversations with each other (tho again I never heard any audio thorugh all this, I could just tell) I dont remember how I left but I remember when I was done, I had tears. It felt so great....
I had friends who knew my brother, who had been doing meditation years before me and more into AP and so much other stuff and simply looked at me and said ":You and your brother both are such visual people" I havn't had a meditation like that sinse.
After and even now when I think on it I wonder if I was just 'making it up' or sorta day dreaming and not really in a meditating state (tho while I was doing this i had no thought about sitting, or about anything...my mind..my everything was into these images I was seeing as if I was really there) I don't know what to make of it.
The woman who jumped intriqued me the most..so did the cat like woman....but Ive had some people say you dont have guides unless you are a medium or something and others say everyone has one and some have more then one....I just feel so confused over this. I would greatly much some insite or opinions from others over this. What does anyone else think on this?