Now that you mention it seeker, I heard something too. I tried to AP once during a sp and I wasnt successful but I started hearing something that sounded like a choir as I was trying to leave my body
Please under stand that I am not makeing this up. This was ment for you I'm certain. Probably a mechanation of guiding spirits.
It's. Been a while since I had sleep paralysis but it just occurred. I literally fell asleep not long after my last post. I became concious. I was paralyzed. I laid there for a few moments deciding what I wanted to do. I have been shooting shotguns, ARs, and high powered rifles all day in training with an expert, so though my thoughts were not inthe right place for journies and altered state work. I was dreaming about it just before. Besides I don't like to do anymore unless I initiate the altered state on purpose.
Anyway haveing decided that my day had been to 'violent' I started to put myself back to sleep. Then my wife moved next to me and it caught me off guard and put me in an inbetween place and I couldn't break the paralysis. I wasn't to concerned ( but I did forget my eye trick). I called out to her. And asked her to shake me. She asks why, I say because im pralyzed so please wake me up . She leans up and kinda shakes me. Not working ...semi vibrations are kicking in. Something I normally have very good control over. Hmmmmmmm I mumble "harder" WTF I said harder! She does a half ass job of it. No I say really really hard. She grabs me by my shoulders and half rolls me over. Still altered... Strange I'm thinking. Then it happens. Unreasonable fear. I know better. Not a couple hours ago I was telling you how to overcome it. I felt it start up. I throw up my defenses (a wall of sorts, it's hard to explaine... It's an altered state tool that I use occasionally) and it's blocked at my feet. I then start grunting trying to push it down. It got stuck at my wall, but unreasonable panic is starting to happen but it's strange I am panicking beciase I'm disappointed in myself for not being able to deal with this as simple as I usually do. The fear and panic is latching on to anything it can. It's smart... It knows me because it is me. Finally I'm just so frustrated I explode everything I have into it all my will. Then I here her. Not my wife, but a spirit guide I am very familure with. She is always at my ear in times like this comforting me helping me to learn. It wasnt my wife shaking me at my requests either it was her. She is repeating " not your fault.... Not your fault.... Not your fault" .
Then I'm 100% I look over at my wife sound asleep with baby between us. I laid there for a second a little p***ed at myself. This happened moments ago. I turn on my I phone to see where I want to report this to others and boom here is our conversation.
You see the fear is not our faults. I have tons research on the matter and have reviewed many many sleep studies. Scientists understand now that the brain trains itself while we sleep. Normal dreams are practice for various parts of life. REM dreams are highly negative. REM sleep is where we are practicing for The dangers in life. Primitive fears of preditors and other obstacles. We practice our fight or flight responses during these stages. Unfortunately during a certain phase of REM if we are awake and in REM. your brain is going to release fear nural transmitters no matter what. That's what it does everynight as an excercise. It's just unlucky or you happen to be alert when it happens. Even Somone very seasoned like myself is not immune....Obviously.
I have ownership of my fearful anima so the fear latched onto my fear that I don't have as much control is may think I have. Indeed I don't. If it would have been a creature or whatever I would have had control over it.
So this bit of knowledge is going to help you the next time it happens. Stay calm and don't think about anything. This was my mistake tonight.
But a spirit guide was giving us both a lesson. It's not our faults. We evolved from rodents living under ground hidding from dinosaurs. We wouldn't be here without our anima. In a way the fear should be welcomed. You cannot fight fear because fighting is a fearful act.... you simply must let it go. I have always known this but forgot this time.
I hope you understood all that. But every bit I think was ment for you .