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In march of Last year It was my new born nephew's christening, now I took it easy with the alcohol all day as family were around and I am the eldest and the only Male in the family. In the evening then I met a mate and we both went to the pub next door and had a few drinks, we had 6 pints of beer and 3 vodka and white lemonade. Which is nothing at all at would just about leave me tipsy, at the time. having drank heavily for years previous i have a very good Torrence to alcohol.
Anyway by the time we finished drinking those we went back next door to my family where we all proceeded back to my parents place. On the way back I picked up a bottle of some homemade alcohol in the range of 84%, the guy I got it off was a very old and trust worthy friend.
My cousin, my friend and myself started drinkn the strong alcohol in shots, we all had 2 shots each with 10-15mins between the first and 2nd one. I asked them did they want moe and they said no, which was fair because this stuff is lethal strong. So i drank another 5 or 6 shots of it not a lot more. My mother came over to me and asks me to stop drinkning it, which isa fair point. So i asked her does she have an whiskey as I am a big whiskey drinker, so she pulls out a fresh litre bottle of Jameson, I drank about half the bottle straight over a good period of time. Jameson and myself have a bad history, it never ever mixes well with me and I ended having a fit or a seizure, you know where the white frothy crap came out of my mouth at that stage I had kinda sat down on the couch. Having anger problems for years I had gone completely nuts and my dad had to calm me down, the ambulance arrived and I was able to walk out and I remember being in the ambulance vaguely.
Next I remember walking into A & E with my dad linking my arm, I was aware and able to walk of my own free will, although my dad held onto me anyway. I blacked out after this.
When I awoke the next day my dad had informed me of what had happened after I blacked out, I punched a doctor and started going on about ' want to kill msyelf' and all that stuff, which isnt liek me at all. Pure drink talk. I was told that my blood alcohol level was so High I shouldve been in a coma, or something and the fact I was conscious and walking had them scratching there heads. What my dad didnt tell me was that I nearly died that night because of the alcohol % I drank but I found out later from a family member.
Now this will sound weird but since then, ive felt slightly odd. Its been nearly a year since it all happened and im a changed person, I body build 3 days a week, im running fit and only drink casually once a week. I dont smoke and im on a good high fiber, high protein diet.
I feel like im not supposed to be here, you know, like I shouldve past away that night. Dont get me wrong im mentally stable and perfectly fine and all that but this over whelming feel I get strikes me as odd and annoying. Where as before it I was liek wired and hyper and also going mad, but now im practically mellow. My anger flared liek crazy after it though but that was probably the alcohol but my rigorous training keeps my anger under total control.
has anyone had a simlar experience and felt the same way. Im only curious.
Id appreciate no hate comments,not on this topic.
Look at it as a personal turning point and always be vigilant about it so that you do not fall back into that lifestyle unless of course that is your wish but it sounds to me that you may be happier with your life now.
