Why do I make demons out to be psychological constructs but not angles or spirit guides? Mostly because I can take control of those dark things and make em dance the chicken dance if I want to. Sleep paralysis claws for massaging my feet..... whatever. It's because of experience. Can I be wrong? Certainly! But why should I think that? The evidence that is right in front of me is much more powerful. Sure I have seen the arguments of false memories, statistical fringes of humanity, and others. It's totally unconvincing yes yes experimental evidence showing that humans are capable of false memories, I did not need an experiment to tell me that, I see it all the time working with people. Let me think if my desert anecdote was a false memory or if details have been embellished. Hmmm mm.. Oh wait you are right. My friend at first said "WTF just happened... I left that part out." You don't have to take any anecdotes seriously if you don't want to, I understand totally, but I certainly have to take events in my own life. I'm not going to go around thinking these things are false memories especially right after they happen. Nor am I just going to consider myself on the statistical fringe of the 6 billion. Really AI that would surely be maddness. I hear plenty of other people with experiences close enough to mine to be able to accept The anecdotes as probably true because I have had similar if not identical experiences. It's far from being on some statistical fringe. Mabey something else surely, but those explanations don't hold any weight.
Anyway I'm sort of tired of arguing about it. You are much more fun than the others because you actually know what I'm talking about, and I dont have to convince you of this perspective because you have been hear. I think you talked yourself out of it, and you think I talked myself into it.
It dosnt really matter does it. I am not going to start thinking my life is based on false memories and being in the fringe of humanity, and you are not going to go back to speaking with your spirit guides ( if you did that). That's just the way it is.
I can do things AI. Wether I am a gifted profiler, psychic, part mad, or some sort of genius deducer it dosnt really matter.
I have noticed the slight tiny redness in a new students eye, the slight ruffle of her hair, the tention in her jaw, the strength in her face to hold things back, the hovering and intrest of her father, the poised quietness of her mother and the twinge of releif in her face that her daughter is around a man she can respect. My inner voice begins to chatter, I know spirit guides want me act. Then I become a creepy ninja. Sitting across the ally in back of her house behind Somones old junk car. I sit for hours. Waiting. Waiting for confirmation. Then yelling starts up. Then crying. Then the mothers voice "leave her alone!!!" then a crash. Resisting urges that will get me in trouble I walk away haveing found my confirmation. The next step. Anonymous phone calls to school counselors and child protective services. But all that was just profiling and trusting my instincts.
A spirit guide in a vision shows me a baby. I'm confused for a while. It crosses my mind that it could be mine in the future, but my wife isn't pregnant, and it's a big heavy baby. All my kids are small ( my wife is Filipino--- and very beautiful by the way she is in bed next to me right now just had to say that). A month latter she is pregnant... When he is born it's the same baby, and yes he is my first large fat child ... But it's a selective memory I guess.
My house sits on a hill above my town. ( I know very batmanish right) a car accident happens mikes away, I can hear it. I'm under the covers, and I'm living through all the emotions of the people involved. I'm trying very hard not to. I know exactly which intersection it is. In the morning I leave my body to see it. Glass, red pieces of tailight, then on my run I go there for confirmation. I have it. I know I know all internal deduction manifested in lucid dreams. I know the materialistic answer. Right or wrong I cannot Deni the experience.
I have annecdotes to fill volumes. My core group of adult students can't stop talking about all the things that happen. ( i dont speak a word to any of them about any if this) Finding a lost child on our beech work out that people had been searching for hours , dragging two of them on a mount shasta hike for tai chi at the top of the mountain only to become obsessively and agressivly fast about a certain part of the climb to certain place out of our way only to find a woman dying from falling on her climbing pick, and one of my group is an EMT and saves her life.
I can go on and on and on and on. But I'm done. As I said in my blog I'm just tired of arguing. I have fun sometimes but it's getting less and less so. For some people the world will always be flat and logic can be taken to great creative heights although I'm sure Somone will claim tge same about me..... But remember I'm in the fringe of the six billion and I'm happy to be hear, and I'm not to proud to be proud.
Seeker out. Really I am this time.... I think... Mabey..., well probably not.
Happy Sunday everyone.
Edited by Seeker79, 04 March 2012 - 04:08 PM.













