People seek to live in hope and I do not fight that desire,
faith gives meaning something I wish I had,
their deaths for them are like a doorway into somewhere else
how I wish that were true,
yet for all my wanting toÖ I can't believe.
It is not for rational reasons, but emotional I believe,
I rage against the death of the young,
those who are innocent at the hands of monsters,
who were once young themselves but turned by abuse,
who spread the seed of pain growing each generation.
I hate death but also thirst for it,
the peace of nothingness that I long for and fear,
no peace in a world were sleep is fitful,
yet I wish I could believe but cannot.
What a nightmare for someone like me
to live over an abyss,
I am happy that few think like me,
for it is a corner I would wish on no one.
I tire of fundamentalist with their quotes,
of atheist with their arrogance and lack of self knowledge,
as if they are not part of the problem like the rest of us.
Which is worse I don't know?
though fanatical atheist are the new hate mongers,
who sound alike,
how is it they call themselves free thinkers
when others are not allowed to think the way they want
without being mocked and abused,
yes they no better,
in fact worse than the fundie's,
for these atheist, brag about their superior intelligence,
but I have not seen that to be true.
So for those who have faith,
who allow others to be,
good for you,
keep it up,
perhaps you are what will get us through this
in the end.
I hope I am wrong, perhaps even praying that this is so.
For those who or on the verge of faith,
go for it, I wish I could.
Edited by dougeaton, 25 March 2012 - 11:44 PM.