Feel free to ask me any questions as there's loads more I could say!
One thing a lot of people get wrong is that they assume how they see things is how everyone else sees things. I get the impression you're trying to fit everyone into the mould where they believe in God because they dont want to go to hell. I believe in religion but its not from a fear of going to hell and no one has indocturnated me.
My belief in things spiritual took off when I got into philosophy. I discovered a lot of rational arguments as to why material reductionism is flawed. I also discovered other theories on the nature of reality and I discovered that cutting edge physics say what they say. Scientifically I am unable to justify materialism, reductionism, the big bang, evolution, the list goes on.
Big bang example -
1. Doesnt explain where the vaccum comes from as its based on only matter and energy being real.
2. Doesnt explain how something can come from nothing.
3. Assumes that maths isnt physically real.
4. Assumes the universe is objective not a collection of subjective perceptions.