Not twisted that you enjoy life, but that dwelling on god seems to permeate everything and you considered it good. Almsot like an addiction really.
No, I just won't accept that something is meant to be loving and want a relationship yet has purposely made a relationship hard. If he'd not sent his son to die a relationship would have been in possible. And even then it seems like an unecesssary waste of a life and a convoluted answer to it.
And most people can find such an avenue easily without it.
It's odd that your life is 'enriched' by god. You act lie your life before you found god (and by extension any non-christians) must be terrible because you didn't have this... strange connection with this other entity, an entity that you've allowed to have a real hold on your life. I fail to see how allowing something to have such a hold is considered a good thing.