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[smokedog]

JGirl- oh ok i see ur point now. what scares me the most is not having control over this. personally i think killing urself is cowardly and it's something i'm hugely against.. until i get home. to what should be my happy place. then the thoughts rush back into my head

[Hilander]

Simbi has a point, Fred could of been protecting the house.  He could be doing this because he is mad at you too.  Since Fred can follow you moving might not help.  Might seek help from someone that can sense what is there and know how to run it off.

[freetoroam]

smokedog, on 25 November 2012 - 09:49 PM, said:

free- the camper is actually a piece of junk that i'm fixing. i would freeze my butt off if i stayed in there.

But it was good enough for Fred, (joke)
put a log burner in there, with flue obviously, we put one on our boat, now it gets too warm sometimes, but we can`t complain.
At the end of the day, it may not be the Ritz, but if its water tight then its still somewhere to go, its got to be safer than going somewhere which makes you feel suicidal.

[smokedog]

as weird as this sounds i don't want fred gone. i truly believe he was helping me keeping an eye on me. i haven't the foggiest clue on who i would ask for help. live in a small place and i'm not religious.

[smokedog]

freetoroam, on 25 November 2012 - 10:15 PM, said:

But it was good enough for Fred, (joke)
put a log burner in there, with flue obviously, we put one on our boat, now it gets too warm sometimes, but we can`t complain.
At the end of the day, it may not be the Ritz, but if its water tight then its still somewhere to go, its got to be safer than going somewhere which makes you feel suicidal.

it's missing the floor at the moment otherwise i'd hitch it up and be on the road far away from here.. with fred in tow

[freetoroam]

smokedog, on 25 November 2012 - 10:18 PM, said:

it's missing the floor at the moment otherwise i'd hitch it up and be on the road far away from here.. with fred in tow

Sounds like you might be better off selling it for scrap, maybe you could use the money to put towards a deposit. Is the house you live in now rented or yours?

[smokedog]

it's rented. the camper was a part of happier times in my life so thats y i'm fixing it instead of scraping it. my labour of love.. and also my excuse to get outta the house more often

[freetoroam]

smokedog, on 25 November 2012 - 10:29 PM, said:

it's rented. the camper was a part of happier times in my life so thats y i'm fixing it instead of scraping it. my labour of love.. and also my excuse to get outta the house more often

you say " i know the place is "haunted" the spirit has been with me since childhood, everyone who i have ever lived with has claimed to see him and feel his presence"
you say the place is haunted, so it appears you have lived in that house since you were little, then if eveyone knows about it, why not speak to your landlord, they may have something to say about it.. but I am confused in what you have put there, you say "i have ever lived with", does this mean in that house or in other houses?

[smokedog]

other houses. i moved away for ten years, spent time overseas and stated to rent this place from my folks when i came back. and obviously they have had experiences with him as i was growing up. but in the mean time fred has always followed. i have dear friends who i love and they love me but absolutely refused to stay with me when they came to visit.. and this was in a place over 1200 km from where i am now

[smokedog]

maybe a better way to put it is i'm haunted not this place. but this is the only place the negative thoughts have affected me so natually one would assume its the place. but the more i think about it and the more i read from folks like urself maybe its me

[with bells on]

hey.. its regulation that people have to talk through your mental health on this forum.. so dont take offense to those type of questions.. its the internet and we dont know you.. so you have never had any mental health issues before?? when did the thoughts of self harming start??

just from reading what you are saying, it does sound like its the house.. classic haunted house situation.. if you want a medium/psychic response you may want to post another post in this section:
http://www.unexplain...p?showforum=148

that way someone on here may be able to look at the house and whats going on spiritually, while you cross out any mental health issues..

so you see Fred and other people have too.. but you dont see anything else??  

peace..

Edited by with bells on, 25 November 2012 - 11:42 PM.

[DKO]

If you're having feelings of harming yourself then there is NOTHING anyone on here can do to help you. No matter what the bills cost you should really see someone to talk about this. I know I would rather the power to go out than harm myself or others.

[coldethyl]

I really wouldn't rule out seeing a doctor.  What you describe sounds a lot like post traumatic stress disorder and/or obsessive compulsive disorder symptoms.

I wish you the best of luck.

[JGirl]

smokedog, on 25 November 2012 - 10:09 PM, said:

JGirl- oh ok i see ur point now. what scares me the most is not having control over this. personally i think killing urself is cowardly and it's something i'm hugely against.. until i get home. to what should be my happy place. then the thoughts rush back into my head

i see you live in canada (manitoba, you poor freezing soul)
you can get counselling at no charge in our country. what are you waiting for?
you will at least get a professional perspective on what you're dealing with in your own mind.

[Cobalt60]

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