specific question: Will I find work and will it be meaningful?
Looks like you've tried a few things. They all look meaningful to me. I suppose it's a matter of what is meaningful to you? It's a matter of prospective. I'd find meaning in working with plants where you would find more meaning in helping abused women and that would just scare me. I do see you working with abused women or in the law in some way helping them. It won't be something you talk about much with people, you keep it under your hat, so to say. Looks like you've seen some ugliness in your early years, I suspect this would be very satisfying for you. You do seem to have a gift for knowing how violent people will react, you read them well.