And then I read the stories of people who spend years in hellish prisons, imprisoned for their faith in God, and upon their release proclaim the goodness of God. How is that even possible?
This is an excerpt from Richard Wurmbrand's "In God's Underground":
"The prison years did not seem too long for me, for I discovered, alone in my cell, that beyond belief and love there is delight in God: a deep and extraordinary ecstasy of happiness that is like nothing in this world. And when I came out of jail I was like someone who comes down from a mountaintop where he has seen for miles around the peace and beauty of the countryside, and now returns to the plain."
He was in prison for 14 years. He didn't view God as a heartless, distant diety inflicting pain on his creation, but as a benevolent, caring Father.
I wasn't referring to just god, but all of mankind as well. I see all of the ugliness of mankind in god. Sadists are about power and think inwards, only of themselves, obtaining dominance through the use of pain, without pity or remorse. It just happens they take pleasure in inflicting pain also.