For me, all my emotions only come out when I by myself, I hate being sentimental around others and try my best to avoid it at all costs. I don't cry at funerals although I almost felt like doing so at My Grandfathers a few months back simply because I was with him hours before he died and he said to me "For the first time in a while, I feel better". It's almost surreal in a way if you've ever experienced it, getting the news that someone you were talking with a few hours ago has died suddenly. I felt numb and somewhat emotionless when the paramedics were trying to resuscitate him, seeing everyone crying and hugging, it's all weird the way people act at these times and I don't like it, my little sister looked at me and said "Why aren't you crying?" which kinda' annyed me because she said it as if it was some requirement although I understand where she's coming from in a way. The only time I felt like tearing was when I found myself in my Grandfathers' empty home. I opened his DVD player to put in a DVD of my own and there was his favorite film, that starred Ava Gardner, his favorite actress; many times I'd sit with him when he was drunk on whiskey and he'd watch the damn thing over and over again, that's the closest I've come to crying at death at a mature age but as it stands, death to me is a natural thing that should be accepted and gotten over with as soon as possible. But that's my take.
I personally don't like all the crying and misery and mopping around and so reserve it, it's handier that way. I bet all the loved ones who have passed would want us to get on with our lives and not waste away, of course it might be hard to do for some people and that's understandable if you're that kinda' person. I guess if I were a religious person I'd find more solace in death but considering I'm not, I still find a bit of comfort knowing that it'll all be over, life I mean in terms of all the **** we have to pull through only to die in the end; imagine everlasting peace in a void of nothing. To go back to my grandfather for a second: he was a sever worrier and got upset at small things so in that sense, I'm glad he's at peace now, even if my idea of peace isn't all fine wine, harps and cherubs.
So fire away.
Edited by Sean93, 07 February 2013 - 01:01 AM.