I think many people ,are led down a path,be its religious or spiritual ,and in the end ,they feel disillusioned by what following this path ,did to their life as a whole.
Generally ,it is no ones fault ,and the person who feels wrong ,must pick themselves up,dust themself off ,and start anew .
To feel betrayed,and like you lost part of your life ,is natural ,but....my advice ,is to put it behind you .Dwelling on what is done ,keeps you from moving forward .
I know people who left Israel for this reason . I know people who became atheists,or switched religions . Some did well,some still floundered .
You must realize ,you are much more than any religion you practice ,or job that you do .
We tend to box ourselves in with labels .
You should identify who ,YOU ARE ,not label yourself by anyone else's tenants .
Figure out what your priorities are .Why they are priorities ,and make it your own .
People put down my beliefs ,yadda yadda ,but they make perfect sense ,to me. I need no ones approval ,and I am content this way.
It may take you a while to get to contentment ,but you need to figure it out ,and let past misgivings ,go....
Great post. Thank you.