God of nothing, God of something, and God of everything first I am feeling good having Home Care is woking for me 2-20-2013 I am not saying it will work for you but is helping me the nurses I met are dear to me just everyday people working for the best outcome for me. Sense I had them I been happier than before and my doctor is working for me for the best care he knows too working together with home care I sure I will get the best care I need. Now I not saying to do not get down low with my feelings I think about things I sure not but the nurse would see it and get me help.
Like the time my cable was not working not because anything I did but the wire was too old but it been replaced and working fine today. It was right around Christmas time when that happen to me I got upset and thing I known because I wrote Email the White House that got police to my door checking on my well fair because I was not taking my medicate like ask by my doctor. I hide in my home not answer the door because the things that happen to me in about 2002 AD where they tired me to a bed when I told them my mother was in the hospital for cancer.
To cut a story short the person that I was using to help me deal with things in my past put a hold on me because I believed she was breaking the rules between patient and doctor. The reason I believe this was because the office persons where winking at me that day I only told her that I believe I was God gift to woman in a round way. She should seem right the lie I told her so I wrote the board of mental health about what happen to me so she put a mental warrant on me.
A Central State Mental Health doctor told they did more harm than good because he was a Louisville doctor I never trusted mental doctors again until I met the one I have today. I went to my Elizabeth-town mental for a few months which was about six. Then I only went part time to my Louisville Medical doctor because it to must trouble to make a appointment for me.
So from 2004 AD until 2008 AD I did not see a doctor at all must of the time and I would walk out of many hospitals because the things happen to me. I did not write this for you to get mad at some mental health places so you would understand me because everybody is not the same and the fears she goes my be worse than the things I went through. So I for gave her a long time ago it blesses me that I got the things I have good friends, good nurses, good doctors, and good office staff.
So today I am not hiding from life itself I seeing a brighter day than before with my nurses that could put a mental warrant alone my doctor that could put a mental warrant because he also has degree in mental health alone with his degree in medicate. I fear nothing because I trust my doctor and my nurses to do the right thing for my hearth because if they did is get would be for me. Thank you my friends with the love of God unto them that believe in it and the love of mankind unto the ones who do not with a holy kiss unto which just is a hand shack of friendship from me Roy known as year2027.
God of nothing, God of something, and God of everything first Some people think that is Pride of self that holds people back 02-23-2013 There is pride of pass things that we can not handle the things we hide from ourself that is what Christ wanted to free us from it is the pride that is happen now but all types of pride we live in. That is why I have nurses coming to my door to free me from some I can not handle yes I do not like the mental health field but I personal need a safe way to get help. Now that me not you and you might not be ready to removed that pride in yourself yet but I believe I am ready.
Let me tell about some of things I did in my younger years I would hide under the coffee table and sleep when I got upset my mother never understood this but I did it and still to this very day. I begin about the time of first grade at times I would hit my head when no one was watching but for some I outgrowth that part of it my mother never knew I was hitting my head until my early teens. In a Christian Bible camp the staff caught me hitting my head on the bean above me I guess there was no coffee table to hide under from things I could not handle.
Later in high school I was caught cutting on my self because I had outgrowth hitting mostly and I had a girl friend that did it too. I would write her name in blood on me but she was into it too alone putting a cigarette out on her arm she always hide the marks from it. I never did I had other friends that were into it also but they hide their marks also. My mother made me talk to Rev Mike Bell about but he never help my feeling about wanting to cut myself.
Later I went in the US army because my problem was not handle yet and I had a new girl friend I wrote her name in blood again not as big but I got caught anyway. Me and her were caught together in the female of Basic Training I would see her reporting to the Captain in line he would tell me my girl friend just trow up in his trash can or something like that. I was order to see Mental heath of the army so I went and I saw a Specialist 5 but she said she was going to get her her adviser to talk to me the captain. They were flying the head men a Colonel to talk to me but the next thing I wanting to get my papers home and before the Colonel could get here I was home.
I wanted to leave that place I sure they known something but I was never told I received a 635 discharge from the US Army maybe if they would of told what they found things might been different for me. Maybe I would got a little help sooner at least I would have known but the army did not tell me a thing about their diagnose. Thank you for letting me tell you the things I been thought today I not cutting on my self nor hitting my head on anything but I find my hiding under my Coffee Table when things get to me with love of truth and a holy kiss of friendship unto you from Roy.
Life 2? Is there a life 2? I sure hope so because life 1 is ruined/over. I don't know if that's what you mean--and why are you typing so small--but it's what I mean. Work your whole life for something just to end up in hospital hell 950 of miles from home. I'll never be the same...full stop, not another step possible, on the floor paralyzed in agony for what? I had been training on the mountain but it was not a fall that ruined me. Things I had never considered or even heard of destroyed my life 1. Everyone gets cut down eventually and that's usually right when they have the most "hope". As I recover from the massive wounds I have to deal with damaging "bloodthinners". They give you no options even while your condition deteriorates. Arthritis you never knew you had kicks in just to further cripple with a new unbearable pain, and I thought gout was bad. This will never go away; that's what they tell me. 48 years old and all they can recommend is joint replacements and a god damned pacemaker? So I'm going to have to take my chances with oriental medicine even though it may very easily kill me, or so they say. Maybe they saved my life and leg in the hospital, but for a life of agony without any insurance or hope? No thanks.
Life 2 has got to be better than this.
"How can someone prove that a rainbow exists to a blind man?"