You are 100% right, and I was aware of this before I posted my question
I guess out of curiosity- maybe we all seek to fit into a social group unconsciously, even though that's the last thing I want to do. Thank you for the tip anyway and no doubt I will continue to live this way.
On a side note, just fyi anyone that is interested;
these beliefs I hold are from how I have perceived my own experiences, and of research that I have done. A little of it is influence from my mother, who is spiritual and my step father who is Native American. My brother and father are both Atheists. My partner and I get into our conspiracy theories. I question everything I never fit in at my previous high school, I'm not a dork or anything, I just feel "seperate" from a lot of people. I am sure if people knew my beliefs they would think I am some weirdo, but meh lol.
Welcome, you might be surprised how many think like you. Ya came to the right place.