As I age I have learned this about myself. When young I was into control, feeling angry and unwilling to admit that I needed help in any way, or that there anything wrong with me. So there was anger that I had to deal with. Then I learned that underneath that was fear. I did not like that, but I again learned to move against my fear so as not to be constantly drawing back from life. It worked OK, though when I thought I was just angry things were simpler. Now underneath the fear I am starting to find a great deal of anxiety, something I guess that fed both the anger and fear. I really hate being anxious because it makes me feel helpless and out of control. So now as I get 'old' I am dealing with this......I hate it, but it seems that God touches us where we are the weakest. I wonder what is under the anxiety, well I may not live long enough to learn that.....best to keep a sense of humor along with ones faith. For it has been a bumpy ride, but not a boring one.