by Kidagakash on Thu Aug 22, 2013 4:45 pm
I haven't conversed on forums like this since the dial-up days, but I have been increasingly concerned as of late. When we were both growing up my brother and I once saw something dark and misty rising from the ground. It had almost reached the same height as us (about 4-5 ft at the time) when we both ran back into the house terrified. We lived in a desert climate at the time, and it almost never fogs there. I had subsequent feelings of terror most nights, feeling as if something in the yard was out there watching me. It got to the point where I couldn't, and rarely still can not sleep without my back to a wall, and even then, I feel a presence, not always, but frequently, watching me. I've been followed by this presence no matter where I am. I infrequently had nightmares of a motionless figure, staring at me, and then suddenly comes forward to me, at which point I wake up completely terrified. The figure always approaches from the same point in the back yard in the dream, as where my brother and I actually saw something come up from the ground. I found out a couple months ago while talking to my brother, that he had actually seen figures at night whom he could not identify. One spoke to him, when he asked who it was. It told him to go back to bed. I haven't seen them in the waking world, except in half-glimpsed moments that I could not get a clear look at anything, but was sure there was something around me. I recently moved over 1000 miles away from that house, which was pretty much the only place these things took place. For over 2 years now my encounters with this entity which for whatever reason was always showing up had all but vanished. This Summer my brother moved out here too. That was when we talked about and realised we had both continued to have these experiences. We simply stopped talking about it, as adults who buy in to the unknown are largely regarded as mentally ill. In the months following his arrival, I noticed strange behavior in myself, himself, and others around the house. Emotionally high activity... sort of like, exaggerated. Then I started noticing them again. I had forgotten how terrifying the feeling is, like someone is right behind you, or even in all directions around you but not visible. The first time it happened in this house was in the basement getting laundry. Out of nowhere, I felt something staring at me from behind, something powerful. I turned around and there was a small spider on a strand of web, directly eye level to me about 12 inches away. This isn't the first time I've felt this happen and then had a spider charge at me out of nowhere. I mostly stay out of the basement if I don't have to go down there, but I can still feel the presence appear in my room. It's very malevolent. It rarely makes any other sign of its existence, except that on occasion, I can feel it pass through me. When this happens I get goosebumps and my skin in that area goes really cold. My only possible theory at this time, is that when my brother moved here, something tagged along? He has always wanted more contact with these entities, or shadows, or whatever they are, and to my understanding could have unwittingly invited them in. I have fought them my whole life out of my presence, but to no avail mostly. Does anyone have any thoughts, or advice on this? Since having them show up again, majorly bad things have happened to my life, and I'm worried a very negative force is causing these things to happen.
Not too long after that I actually saw one for the first time without doubt:
by Kidagakash on Mon Sep 02, 2013 9:33 pm
There was a large thunderstorm blowing through this town yesterday just after sunset. Roughly 15 minutes before the rain hit, I saw clear as day, this mostly formless shadow move through the parking lot in the church near my house, toward the trees on the edge of the lot. I'm only cataloging this event because I almost never see them with my waking eyes. My brother was also there (we had gone outside to watch the storm move in) and claimed to see a second shadow, but much larger, moving in the same general direction. Something about lightning storms seems to really boost paranormal activity. Just my opinion, anyway. Oh interesting side note, my brother told me they are attracted to churches... I hadn't heard that before, will have to see if there's credibility to that.
The last one was very upsetting. The house has been a lot calmer lately but I still feel them here sometimes at night. I am hoping a major incident does not happened again for a long time, if ever. Another one from last year that I didn't document and won't get into right now cost me my job and I couldn't leave my room except to get food and cigarettes for a month.
by Kidagakash on Fri Apr 18, 2014 11:10 pm
My brother had been living here for 2 months now. I had become increasingly upset over his lack of regard for our parent's house while they were south for the Winter. One night, I suddenly snapped and started shouting all these things I had always felt but never said about his disregard for the home we live in, It wasn't anything threatening, just to stop treating the house like a dumpster, to take care of it, etc, nothing threating to them just outrage over a neglected home. I'm not an angry or violent person ever, but I screamed things that I didn't know I was capable of. Even the my voice was much louder and growling than I ever thought I could sound. He and his girlfriend left shortly after to stay at her Dad's house. After they left the cats started meowing a lot. I got this wierd panicky feeling, uncomfortable.... nervous. I tried to calm myself down, and relax. Then I started speaking out loud to myself (A process I use when I am stressed and need to calm down) but I wasn't trying to calm myself, I was saying "Something gave me a voice." "I couldn't say that on my own." I thought about that for a moment, and then kept trying to divert my attention and calm down. I had work early the next day. I eventually went out to the room to sleep on the couch. (I haven't been sleeping in my own room for a couple weeks. I just can't do it anymore) My kitty came to snuggle next to me and sleep, and I pet him for a while, and he was purring and falling asleep. Out of nowhere, he bolts away from the couch and runs upstairs in about 3 seconds.He must have lept 6 feet straight through the air and was scratching his way upstairs like he couldn't get out of there fast enough. I felt very anxious, and afraid. I called out for him to come back for a few minutes, desperate to not be alone, and very disturbed by his abrupt and fast departure from the room. He has never done that before. Then... I feel fingers, the top half of a hand on my shoulder, almost on the back of my neck. It wasn't in my mind, and it lasted for several seconds. The amount of fear I felt was indescribable. I pulled the blanket completely over my body and cried out for my kitty to come back and keep me from being alone for at least 10 minutes. he did not come back in the room. I suddenly became so overwhelmingly drowsy that I fell asleep. I don't remember anything else after that except waking up and vomiting up some clear liquid, and feeling very anxious, and tired, like I hadn't slept for a minute, but I had been asleep for almost 9 hours. I have seen them only once that I can remember, but I can feel when they are close, and it's very terryfying. I have every working bulb burning in this house right now as I type this. I'm not writing this for amusement for myself or others. I'm documenting an experience that was very unpleasant, and I hope that it offers someone solace that they might not be crazy. I'm a normal person. I don't have voices in my head, or have wierd psychological trauma. I only want to ask one thing. Has a shadow ever touched anyone else before? I won't ever forget the feeling, I can't even describe it, but it was very bad. Those are the worst of my experiences that I can remember. There have been others. Some forgotten, some repressed, and some I am not willing to dredge into my concious mind long enough to write about. I have had very little to go on besides my own research and maybe 2 replies at the other forum. If anybody has any thoughts and any of this at all I would be very greatful for yout perspective or ideas. Thank you for your time. Apologies for the spelling and grammar errors.
Edited by kidagakash, 25 May 2014 - 11:23 PM.