Posted 23 August 2011 - 01:19 PM
I found this thread on google, and was so touched by the stories I had to sign up and share mine.
I had a friend commit suicide when I was 16, he was 18. It's been just over five years now and I feel like I've coped with the whole thing well, but it's always upset me that I never dream about him. I don't speak to a lot of our mutual friends much any more so sometimes I get scared I'm starting feel like I'm loosing my memories of him.
Anyway, onto the dreaming - I think I've only dreamt about him three or four times, but in every dream, he was always more of a presence. We knew he was around but I never saw him or spoke to him, we could have been looking for him, or other times it was his funeral - we were there but never saw him.
BUT - last week I dreamt of him clearly for the first time. I was having my usual crazy dreams, relating to work and friends in a bizarre yet all very clear way. I was standing on a stage at a venue I had been working at that day. I looked over toward the stairs and he walked up them. He was so clear and looked exactly as the last time I saw him, everything down to his clothes, beanie, haircut and the way he walked. I ran over to him and jumped on him and threw my arms around him, hugging him and I wouldn't let go. I started shrieking, and squealing with excitement "How are you here?! You're meant to be dead?!" and he just kept walking up the stairs still hugging me (I wasn't letting go for love nor money) and he just looked at me and said in such a happy tone, like I was completely insane to have ever questioned him "What are you talking about? I've been here the whole time..." I woke up straight after that, with the most incredible sense of comfort and happiness. I started crying, overwhelmed by sadness and at the same time that incredible feeling of relief.
I don't know if it were him or his spirit coming to me in my dreams, or if it were just my own mind creating the new memories to comfort me. I don't really mind either way, it was such a comforting and amazing feeling. I hope it happens for me more often, and with other relatives and friends. And I hope that others that have experienced such loss can have their own dreams and experiences like mine, to help them get through their difficult times.