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That's what I was trying to say a few posts back, I thought I had died when I fell over and cracked my head on the floor very hard.
It does make you wonder doesn't it.
Hey Miamivice, it could even be, we did die in another reality and that they even had our funerals there!
It happened to me too, I know I died a few months ago, by accident... I should say because of a huge mistake. It was a horrible experience but I do remember all the suffering and I often cry now because I know my girlfriend found my dead body and that my family cried a lot for me.
The good thing is that I remember everything, I'm not able to explain it yet but I remember every moment of my death, when I was deeply in it and then the transition to another reality. In this reality, my girlfriend came back from a long travel to "save" me. I really felt I was between two planes of reality, everything was silent, I could only see the emptiness of my home from my point of view, everything was quiet, I couldn't move, only see what was happening. Then someone or something made the move for me... He/She/it chose the way for me, it was like the world outside me didn't change visually speaking but there was some change I could feel. I got up quickly, as if nothing arrived and went to bed saying to myself... Ok, let's accept the truth about it, I nearly died because of myself, I called for help and that's it... I'll be sorry when she'll come back and now I know what I can't do. . My girlfriend had a few hours of driving to go back home and she came... After my "resurrection" actually...
My girlfriend came back and she wasn't even angry, we discussed about for a while, a thing we had never done before, I told her I felt like a "rebirth", I didn't really know what I've been through at that moment.
I'm still thinking about it, at first I said to myself : a few hours of existence leading to a lifetime of reflexion. And for a while, every 2 to 3 days, my mind called me to think about it, it can be only a detail reminding me of my last minutes of life, it leads to hours of reflexion. Now it's not so often but I still have that call for whatever reason, and everytime I find another answer, more precise to what happened.
I can't really explain everything I thought, but now I know I died, I know that death doesn't exist, I know about my energy which will live until depleted, which will live even if I kill myself. I was afraid to be in purgatory at first, and I still don't know if I'm in or not but I begin to be confident and I prepare myself to face the truth whatever it is.
Death as we know it doesn't exist, you can't die, your soul can't become nothing.
In fact, we die all the time without even being able to feel it as we're changing reality plane. There are only a few times when you feel it, it's when you need to clean up your mind in order to keep on using your energy well, that's all we're here for, using energy, sharing, communicating and making this universe the perfect universe it deserves to be. That experience cleaned my mind of many things, I saw all my life, I saw deep into myself, many bad things, I acted as my own judge, all the darkness of my life being shown in front of my eyes. I said, I really said : "If that's how I really am, then I don't deserve to live".
What I don't know is what happens when you're too old, when your energy is depleted. I'm now afraid that souls are eternal, I'm afraid of being tired of all this at one time or another.
That NDE led me to some mental diseases I didn't had before, sometimes I'm thinking at myself as the only one being in the universe, everything surrounding me is created by myself, people around me don't exist, they're only there to test me or to help me, history don't exist, it has been created for me to have a background. That sounds stupid but it's coming sometimes in my head with such a power I can't say no to it...
I'm far more superstitious, I believe in destiny, I'm also a little bit paranoïd. But it's going better and better. In the end, 90% of my life now is very enjoyable, even the smallest things can make me happy. That's a real gift. I know I'm gifted, that I have now some guideline to my life and I know that every little thing in life is a present that can make me happy.
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