I have been so blind all this time
Foolishly living this life too fast
Realizing something is starting to bind
Looking back sickly at my misleading past

This struck me so hard it broke mental bones
I feel no one hears me despite of my moans
I'm pulling the ground trying to escape
Clinching so hard all my nails tend to break

Thinking of those who I truly have lost
Silently whisper to myself their name
When ones that I've known die could this be the cost
That no trace of myself on this earth will remain

I toss and I turn and I'm finding no sleep
This is the time that these thought start to creep
Prying and forcing their way in my head
Should I just fight them or rather be dead

Shaking and breaking I'm aching inside
Noises and voices tease me til no end
My eyes have went black and I've lost all my pride
Won't someone understand me? Somebody? A friend?

Maybe it's my demons robbing me of my health
Or possibly I am just killing myself
I;m asking this question at my cores very end
Soon I'll find this answer lying from within

Great work. I feel many of those things myself. I look forward to more of your work.

how about " MY AGONY"?

well in my mind it is beyond a description

I liked it. Deep. Heartfelt. Enduring.

It reminds me of some of my own writings from many years ago.

thanks, comments are much appreciated

I understand more than you know. Don't go anywhere. You are loved and would be greatly missed ♥ Jody

thank you she-ra! i can tell by your reply you understand EXACTLY what i said. thank you

**hugs**

Wow "Speachless".

I felt this one bro.

thank you very much Crimson!!! hugs***

This is really amazing, and the thought, feelings, loss and regret i hear in your poem is something i am very familiar with! Terrific work!

I think you struck deep with many on this one... I like the way you switch the style up, but it still all flows together.

I have to agree with mah sista she-ra on this one too... I opened this thread knowing it would be worthwhile