The clock strucks 10
it's time for him
to come
what state is he in
will he get in
what will he say
what will he do
will i taste my own blood tonight
what will he break
forget it
maybe he won't come
lay down your head
on your tear soaked bed
the one you love may be calling you
but the phone doesn't ring
and that b******'s back again
standing outside
screaming his voice
afraid to listen
i put my head under my pillow
he bangs on the front door
counting the seconds
he yells some more
all is silent now
but i don't hear his car drive away
i run and hide
he's now pounding on my window
a mixture of screaming curses and begging
he cracks the glass
his hand is bleeding now
one last time his hands punch the window
i hear his foorsteps fade away
now 12
i take a deep breathe but i don't move
shaking and almost crying
cannot contain myself
stepping out of my sacred place
check my phone
my milu won't call tonight
how i wish someone to be here
i turn off the light
and pull the sheets completely over me
and close my eyes
breathing rapid
saying to myself
"everything will be alright
everything is fine"
but that's a false lie
cause his car still hasn't driven away
and i can only wonder
what he's doing next
winds pick up like a whistling train
sounds like screaming from my cracked window
thunder in the background
or is that my shivering fear
blanket feels warm and soft against my
cold and numb body
sending soothing waves
trying to calm me down
how i wish to be safe in my babys arms
eyes closed
and not feeling the disturbing presence of my ex
and i didn't have these bruises
been quite for so long
maybe he's gone
i drift to sleep
and i dream i'm safe with you
next to you in a soft white room
with golden sunshine fallening on us
warming our skin
all is peacefull and calm
all is right with the world
in your arms and comfort
and a smile flys across my face
but i am awakened
as the clock chimes one
echoing through the hallow halls
and i feel someone pull me out of bed
and slam me into the wall
i shall bleed tonight...
