I found this site, and joined by browsing the Internet. I told some things to a coworker and she gave me some terms for what she thought I may be experiencing. I've worked with her for nearly a year, although we became friends quickly, I've never told anyone about my experiences. She said she actually has an aunt that mentioned about something "astral" that she experienced, but it scared her and so she cautioned against it. But this is what has happened to me over my life, and I'll go back with the things I remember, because sometimes I wonder if it's all related, and if it's just me, or if something triggered the next thing.

When I was younger, I would have very strong feelings, almost intuition and I can't explain it much other than that. I would have a really bad feeling or intuition on certain days, and on those days or that night, or the next day - something really bad would happen in the town where I grew up. One thing in particular I remember was saying exactly that to a friend of mine who lived next door, while we were throwing baseball in the back yard. I asked him if he had ever had a feeling that something bad was going to happen - and he said 'yes'. I think back now, and I think - well what else would he say? LOL. But then I told him that sometimes this happens to me, and I told him, I have this feeling right now, like something bad is going to happen and I can't explain it. That night, in my small town, 1 of the only 2 general stores burned to the ground and a family was left homeless. It was early in the morning when it happened, maybe 2:00 or so a.m. But I remember the sirens, and the firetrucks, and everyone jumping out of bed to see what was going on, and even really young, I was probably 8 or 9 years old at the most, I felt sick, and afraid because things had happened like this before to me. We went into the front yard, and you could see fire up the road - up the hill, less than a half mile away, but you could see the fire and the smoke. The neighbor I had played ball with the day before and his family were outside in their front yard also, and so were alot of other neighbors. I remember him saying really loudly to his family - Grandmother, and extended family - "(my name) said this yesterday - this would happen that something bad was going to happen. Tell them, tell them, (my name)"! And I looked over and I said, "no I didn't, I didn't say that." I was afraid someone would think I had something to do with the fire. And the grandmother looked at me, and she said, "I saw in your eyes when you was born you have some of the sight". She asked me if I said anything or saw anything the day before, and I said no, because I was still afraid of what I had felt and what I had said to her grandson.

I live in northern Virginia (USA), but from a small town, or it was then. My family was white, and the neighbors were black but all of us were very close and very good friends. I always remembered that night in particular and looked up many years later what the neighbor said about the "sight". I didn't want to think about it at the time, and for years anything I felt I would ignore and I never told anyone again. I started not to have the feelings again, and they seemed to disappear.

Weeks leading up to September 11th, 2001, I had the most awful dreams. From things I read they were night terrors, because I tried to look on the Internet since it was available, and find out information. The most scary dream I had, I do not remember, but I remember in my ear hearing a very sad and awful voice, say to me, "Something evil is coming to this country". And it happened on many nights, and literally RIGHT before I would wake up from sleep. It was like there was a person standing right next to my ear while I was sleeping, saying this right in my ear. I didn't tell anyone, until everything happened here, September 11th. I didn't tell anyone right away, a couple of years passed before I told someone about the experience I had before 9/11. The few people I've told, I know do not believe me, and so I have not really said anything to anyone since.

About 10 years ago in dreams, I would notice that I could fly at will. In my dreams if I think about wanting to fly - the dream usually dictates that I need to fly, or that I want to do it to catch something or someone...or get away from someone, or travel somewhere I want to go....in the dream I think about it, and the air around me feels more thick...then it feels very thick, and then the air around my fingertips feels so thick that I can literally push myself into the air because I am gripping something, and my back takes hold, and I lift and I feel like I am doing work to flap or to fly, but I am not tired. My dreams are always very vivid when this happens, and I can will it to happen in my dreams. Rarely can I not will it to happen.

About a year ago, when I sleep, I feel a sensation of the covers that are on me...ruffle is the best way I can describe it. It feels like wind or a breeze blowing through the covers on top of me...and I feel so tired, but peaceful and relaxed, almost as if I am barely breathing. The covers that are on me feel very light and in my sleep I rise above the bed. Sometimes I turn into the flight thing that I described just above, and I go places that I want to go, and return later. Sometimes I stay in the room, and look back at myself sleeping. When this type of thing happens, I do have a sense of fear and I don't know what it is. But this is much different than a dream and when I choose to fly within the dream. This is like, I'm more alive, but afraid. I don't know how to explain this part other than that.

The one thing I will say and hope I am not judged for it. I came from a very religious family, and I still am, and will always believe in God. I don't know how that fits into a place like this because this discussion forum is brand new to me. But I want to know, in a way, what is wrong with me, and why has this happened to me, and should I go further, or try to shut it out as I did when I was a child? Or will it always come back, or should I try and figure it out and maybe use it for some kind of good? Or is there any good in it? I have so many questions. And please understand when I was going to Bible school as a child, we were always told the occult or anything like it was bad, and to stay away from it. But I remembered reading things in the Bible where people consulted "prophets" and so I never understood why some people were allowed to have what people might call supernatural or paranormal things happen to them, and they get consulted...but anyone else is damned to hell? LOL. I don't know how else to put it, but if anyone has any information or insight, please tell me what you think and if there is something wrong with me?

Nope, nothing wrong at all.

I used to get the feeling of being lite, like the covers not having any weight and that I was hovering. Turns out, this is just endorphins. You get a similar feeling when your right about to go under anesthesia(your not supposed to remember this but I've been under quite a few times and I remember this very well, the best feeling in my life actually, codeine does the same thing). You feel, very relaxed, light, happy, breathing is very light.

Well, I'll write more later, I've got finals tomorrow. Meh... sternocliedomastoid, mastoid process of the temporal bone, occipital conocyles..... infecting my brain lol

Well,
ttyl,
Sincerely,
llynx

It sounds like you have a very strong intuition. And really good control of lucid dreams, as well. And the astral something that was cautioned against is probably astral projection.

Well Fevuh there are others who experience what you have described. Some of them want to block these experiences and others want to work with them. What you forsee, as I understand it, are strong energy potentials. The stronger the energy, the easier it is to get that feeling. Emotional events have stronger energy than less emotional events. Thus that bad feeling.

May I ask why at this point in your life are you starting to research these experiences, where before you were inclined to ignore them? Belief systems can be expanded in a way that supports the existing system. Is that somethig you have considered? I realize you are trying to put the pieces together. I would like to understand better what your underlying motivation or intent is at this time.

John

I'm glad to find that I'm not the only one who has those types of experiences.

I hope you are glad too.

you aren't crazy, but at the same time take everything with a grain of salt.

I don't start believing in the "bad thing" unless I have a specific clue of what it is

Hey - I am really sorry - have been busy and had not had time to come back to check replies. I appreciate everyone's comments. To the one poster who asked why wonder about these things now......well, exactly. LOL. This is kind of the way I have dealt with these experiences all of my life. But growing up in a religious family, we were kind of taught that if you pay attention to these kinds of things, you are opening the door to something bad. Psychics are bad - that's just what you're told to believe. And anything about seeing the future, or fortune telling, basically anything remotely related to the occult, etc.....is bad because if you open the door a little bit, you are opening yourself up to something dangerous. That's just what you're told. So, for most of my early life (now 38) - I didn't pay attention to it, but things would continue to happen...things like I described.

Just this year, my mother had a short illness and passed away on Christmas Day, December 25, 2007....I miss her alot. She was really funny - and although never graduated high school, was actually very wise. I think her passing has made me think about alot of things that I didn't really notice before, and I've been thinking about things like this more and more.