Lately something inside of me grew, I was caught unaware. It took me by surprise and the next thing I knew was that I’ve fallen for you. I’ve tried to brush the thought out off my mind because I know that if I attend to it I would only end up hurt in the end. I told myself that I may be wrong, that this may not be what I think it is, that I might have just mistaken or confused this special feeling that I have for you, with love. It hurts to admit but it’s true
I hated myself for feeling this way because I wanted so much to keep the friendship and now I know it would be hard with love getting in the way. How could I ever sincerely call you friend when in my heart I know that you’re more than that.
Please try to understand if I ever have sudden changes in the way I act whenever I’m near you, the awkward silence that never used to be there before or the far away look in my eyes as well as the times when I would act so strange each time you’re with someone whom I now you care for. Love and pain explains it.
Please try to bear with me. I’ll try to get rid of the feeling as soon as I can and as soon as my heart make sit possible. I assure you, you will get your old friend back, the one that didn’t use to feel this way for you. It’s just that right now what I feel for you is inevitable.
Soon I know I will be able to handle this crazy emotion, it has already started to harm my heart and I won’t let it destroy the beautiful friendship that we have. Before that even happens, I’ll have to keep distance and go away for a while, just as long as the feeling hasn’t gone away. But I’ll be back soon my friend. You’ll get your old friend back and when you do I hope you’ll welcome me, your long lost friend.
It may take a while but I’ll be back…. I hope.