I hate giant topics, so I'll try to keep this as short and sweet as possible--despite the fact I tend to ramble and go on and on about useless stuff.
A while back I posted a topic on sleep paralysis (and, really, it was a long time ago), to learn more about it. Since then I've been looking into it more, and I've started to wonder about the connection between science and the paranormal in sleep paralysis.
There's one important question I haven't been able to get answered, in Googling, searching Wiki, or topic-hopping around here. Though SP isn't normal to begin with, what would be abnormal in the number of times SP happened to you in a week, a month, or a year? I know that stress tends to cause SP, and sleeping on your back will encourage it (and that's the only time it happens to me), but what if it happens EVERY time you sleep on your back? For the past week that's the only way I've been able to get to sleep for some reason--I normally sleep on my left side, but recently I just can't get comfortable that way. Even if I fall asleep in that position, I'll wake up on my back. SP is quite normal for me, it's happened so much in the past. But I've noticed that within the past month, every single time I sleep on my back, or wake up sleeping on my back, I'm paralyzed. I just know that can't be normal, but am I really doing that to myself? I haven't been SUPER stressed lately, there was only one instance that caused me to be upset, but even when I'm in a peaceful mood it still happens.
I can remember a few instances when I was SPed, and what I saw during that time. I have never been SPed where I didn't see something. Several years ago I remember waking up from a dream where I was ghost hunting in an abandoned building, and I was putting up cameras. I was ordered to go into a room that was separated by a large black sheet, and in front of me stood this giant black mass. I woke up at that instant, and it was still standing over me in bed. I couldn't move or scream, and it took a while for the figure to fade away. Around the same time (as I was sleeping in my brother's room while he was gone) I had a similar dream, but I woke up to see a grotesque gray figure peeking over the mattress. I've seen the figure before, in real life, twice in the span of five minutes at my dad's old house. I haven't seen it since, but I can't remember if I saw that figure during a moment of SP recently before or after my dad's house burned down. It was one or the other, because I remember not long after having to go to his house and facing the fear of seeing it again.
There are two instances where I SPed that happened very recently. One was only a few weeks ago, and the most recent was two nights ago. I remember having a dream about Cloverfield--only instead of a monster it was an alien invasion--and everyone was forced to hide inside of a super market. I remember running out of it with two of my friends who said they were going to run for it, but the spinning ship (which apparently had a razor of some sort whirling around the middle) came out of nowhere. I ducked down and tried to stay still, but when I looked up my friends were gone. I turned around, and woke up, and as I was laying in bed I saw the disk hovering above me. The image faded and I realized it was my light.
Two nights ago I woke up to see a massive army of red ants crawling out of my ceiling, but I don't remember the dream I woke up from. There was also something strange about this time, that I don't remember ever happening before. I can recall a voice saying something about the ants, and that's when I was actually able to make sounds. I remember feeling very heavy and tried to scream, and I remember wanting to pull something off my throat. I remember feeling like I was making a choking/gurgling sound, but I went back to sleep. When I woke up again, I realized that what I must have seen was the shadow on my wall--but since I went back to sleep after that moment of SP, I don't know for a fact if I was struggling, or if I had actually managed to make a sound. It was by far the strangest SP episode I've ever had, and is undoubtedly not the last.
I do love to SP, for some reason. I think that at some points, I realize I'm SPed, so I don't tend to worry as much as I did before.
Anyway, your thoughts? Is it my body, as I'm sure most instances tend to be caused by, or do you feel some episodes were different? There's something about the most recent one that felt different than the rest, whether it was mostly dream or mostly real, or something else entirely. Most times I SP I stay awake, and watch until my dream fades away before I'm able to get up. But that time nothing began to fade away, and I wound up going back to sleep--which almost never happens when I SP. I feel like there was something weird about it, but I don't want to think that--if it was paranormal in any way--that it was a malevolent spirit. I've lived in this house for upwards of seven-eight years, and no one's said they've felt threatened despite the fact everyone claims to feel or see things. If it was my body and nothing paranormal, am I finally able to combat SP and struggle to stay in control over my mind's perception in it's dream state...?
I'm not sure, but I wouldn't want to stop SPing all together. It's an experience in itself, and definitely adds spice to the rest of the day.
