Sounds like you and I have a lot of the same beliefs. I, too, remember being something other than human. And I also feel that connection that you described.
I've actually even started writing about what I can remember... here is the first chapter- it's pretty short.
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A surge of milky liquid sped past my eyes, running along the veins of the leaves pressed around me. I could hear my heart racing, and nothing else. The leaves trembled as if they were a part of me and knew my heart like it was their own. My Adune Toriu: a plant… one that I’ve been developing in for a time now. I felt everything that happened… the pulsating liquid flowing within my veins… my mind… throbbing and dancing with the mind of my home… Aquariet… Attached to her, connected, knowing all that she knew and seeing what she saw.
My mind reached past what eyes could see… the stars, gleaming… streams of light connecting them all… purplish blasts of luminosity surrounding each sun… and all of it seemed to shrink, this intense greatness that I’ve seen and learned from while I’ve developed. The connection was slowly being severed between us. Realism crushed me, keeping me suspended in a little ball.
The leaves bent beneath my paws as I pushed down on them, unsheathing my claws for grip on the slippery matter. Beyond the leafy layer I found the hard outer shell, knowing that somehow I had to break it open. My lungs began to collapse as the plant stopped breathing for me and closed in, trying to force me out. I slid along my back, my wings crushing under me. I kicked in anguish with all four legs… kicked to get out, kicked to breathe…
The shell cracked beneath my plummeting and the milky liquid seeped out. Squirming in the enclosed space, I started pushing it open, writhing and squeezing through the leaves. The shell broke apart and a piece of it fell to the icy ground outside, a muffled thud. I thought I heard it crying… and then it was overrun by the intense cold… as I threw my head up and out of the shell, gasping for air and staring around at the blurry atmosphere…
The air was so bitter, so much that I almost choked on it. Time wavered, my mind was drowsy, as everything slowed down… and I stumbled on my own inhalation. Silvery-white feathers swam into view, my eyes told me they swirled around like phantoms… my mind told me they were still…
“Cetarae cea!” the voice burst unexpectedly in my newborn ears. I reached out with my claws and latched on to the giant Adune Toriu, dragging myself from the chamber and making small, wispy chirps that crawled from my mouth and carried out, ending like an echo…
“Cetarae cea! Cetarae cea!” My mind began to grasp reality, and it started thinking, translating, interpreting… and I again knew what I knew in my Adune Toriu… the bitter air turned sweet, aromas of sugary nectars saturated my senses.
“Suna, iet cina cetarae cea!” Come, it has silver eyes… That’s what they were saying…
I flopped over onto the icy ground, where my body immediately began to adjust to the cold. Ice… so smooth and soft… formed from the crystals that were Aquariet. The faces around me swam into view; they gathered and stared while I lay panting on the ground.
When my eyes had cleared I realized that they were the same as me: one of the races that inhabited Aquariet. Even before I broke through my shell I somehow knew what we all looked like, what the planet looked like… how to speak, write, walk, climb and fly. I was born knowing only the simplest of things.
We are called Aqua Adunis, or Aquarians. We are born being already a little more than a foot long from nose to our thighs and back legs. We are the same in length standing straight up on all four legs and heads held high. Our tails are like that of a dragon’s. In shape that is, starting about an inch in width and growing skinnier and skinnier toward the end, where a beautiful silvery-white feather is placed. Our bodies are covered in white silky fur, shining silver in glimmers of light. Four short legs and a small torso, four paws each with extendable claws clear like the crystal they walk upon, and elegant necks that hold up a head somewhat between a dog and cat’s. Our eyes face ahead of us, and our ears are like small stalks each webbed together with a silky, clear substance. Females have curly tips and males have pointy ones. Girls usually have better hearing; their ears act like sonars while the males’ are more like antennae. Our wings are filled with feathers smaller than the one at our tail but just as soft and the same in type. Some of us even have a few feathers growing on the backs of our necks intertwined with our manes.
We are born with the ability to alter our DNA sequence, create new strands, and delete some in return. We are a form of shape shifter. That is all I know. I’ve seen our world before I was born, the same way I saw the others, rotating and circulating in their orbs of light… but nothing can prepare you for your first life, your first beginning.
“Come on! It has silver eyes! Get over here!” I stretched my neck out and let out a small but steady word: “Cetarae?”
“It-“ I heard a second, younger voice, “-is a she. Can you not tell? Stop leering over my little sister…”
The others that had swarmed around me seemed to back up a bit as a smaller one came up, a white-tipped paw placing itself before me.
“Suna, Kataika, suna unith te ka…” Come, Kataika, come with me… I felt a soft wing brush my damp shoulder and in a swift movement, my sister lifted me over her shoulders and carried me away. I lay between her soft, dry wings and glanced behind us, where the receding crowd of Aqua Adunis watched me, and crystal rocks passed me by.
It was all happening too fast. I wished to be back in my home… where I could wander with the stars and watch with interest, the worlds around me… but those memories were leaving me as fast as I was being pulled into this new world.
A soft splashing reached my ears… I hung a damp paw over the side of my sister’s body and looked down… where there was the clearest of water… that seemed to hold its own light… like the stars had.
“Hold on, okay?”
I did what she told me. The water rose up around her elbows as she waded deeper into the lake… and the cool water licked my paw. I drew it back in surprise. The water dribbled off my paw and was reunited with the body of water. It left my paw dry and soft…
My memories and the knowledge I had learned were beginning to fade away every moment I was in this world. I could only remember the last few facts about my planet before they were swept away like the essence of a dream after you awake. It looked like we were all inside one giant cavern, dozens upon dozens of icy columns. They were created over time by the stalactites and stalagmites meeting each other throughout Aquariet.
“Mea…” I fought to find the right words. “What is… what do they call you?”
She turned her head with a grin on her face.
“Kiarra. My name is Kiarra.”
I was weary. Before I knew it… my eyesight had faded and everything had gone black.
Here's a picture of what I think I looked like:
Is it possible all of this really happened? I mean I know the names I've chosen for the story and such are probably not what they really were... but I had a lot of dreams with this strange stuff in them...