Wow, I am surely surprised in a good way. I have a big smile now. Thank you for being so kind as to ask.

My *friend* doesn't mess with me like it used to.
I am pretty much free of it now. FOR NOW huhuhu

I haven't had any dreams( bad ones) lately.

I do think that it leaves me alone for the most part, because it can't get it's way.
This is what I feel. Then again, really I say, I might be crazy. I don't think so though.

You know how crazy people always say that they are not crazy?

Well, I don't want to be like that, saying the same thing, if I am.
I have decided now that I am going to see another psychiatrist and get this person's opinion on me as well. I will, however, continue to see this one. She is very opened minded and she involves herself sincerely in her work. She already knows my family too.

I am hoping that when I see another one, that I can get a different look on things. What if I am crazy? What if all of everything I have ever been through can be explained by various other things?
These are all valid questions to ask.
Maybe my friends and family are messed like me and fed this imagination I may have.

I do sincerely believe in my experiences and I don't know what to think, as far as everyone telling me that I am crazy. Now I am just kind of shocked stiff. I was thinking last night. I realized that I do indeed have so so many experiences. I asked myself, how many other people have this many experiences? I realized, could this be a product of being sick?
Or am I going through all of these things in my life because of having such close ties with the occult and witchcraft as a child?
I don't know anymore, I do know that I believe in my experiences and that those who experience some with me believe too. Some have and they believe. I think that this isn't enough anymore. My scar on my lower belly, all of the things, that happened to me. I just don't believe that I am crazy, but I again look at myself through the eyes of the world and I see a mentally sick person.

I look at how I function as a human being. I do well. I am a very good and loving mother. I am a good and loving wife. I am a productive contributing citizen to our society and I have many responsibilities. I am currently taking all of these academics at school and I associate at school too. I have my group of friends and I am very well liked. Everyone at my school knows and likes me. We get together and party. We have dealings with each other. The only thing is I think How can a crazy person be so productive and social?
My psychiatrist also used my school as a reference to my character. She also looked at how well I perform as a person and said just that alone suggests that my being crazy is highly unlikely. Yet I think of Ted Bundy. This mass murderer was well known and liked. Very liked by the ladies and he turned out to be so horrid.


I am just spilling out what has been on my mind lately.
All I can write about is what I am thinking. If I offend someone and sound like I am full of myself, I didn't mean to sicken anybody. I can't write for anyone or the ideas of anyone else but my own. Ive been accused of wanting a pity party. I admit that I do sound pretty pitiful at times, but I don't ask for a pity party, I am just typing down what I feel and think. I can't type down your feelings as my own, I don't want to write about the weather He He, I do write about the topic. This interests me and so I contribute.
I am not the type to feed on pity. I hate it. Even as a child I would get injured and if someone came to me trying to help me I would get angry and I wanted to be left alone, because I didn't want anybody feeling bad.
I will suffer through much and only complain when I can't bear it anylonger.


anyway right now I am at a loss for words

Hello Jolene,

I haven't read this entire thread, but stumbled at your last post and feel I should reply.

Having read parts of what you went through in your life (being married and having a child with 16, the then husband turns out to be alcoholic and gay) and me thinking there is likely to be more that you don't mention, you should NOT be ashamed this has left scars on your soul.
You are going to school, raise a son and have a loving husband now, so I suppose you are trying everything to get your life sorted.
As I said, I would not generally say your experiences are unreal (they may be linked to poltergeists), however you should do a therapy and get healed. No matter if you are traumatised or if it's negative energy within you that attracts poltergeists, a therapy will help you to get this sorted.
I am glad you are taking advice from forum members and try to see those experiences from another point of view. Also, don't feel that people here enjoy to tell you that you might suffer from a menthal disorder - this is not done to make you feel ashamed or to flame you, but out of concern for you.

I think it is a good idea that you will talk to two different psychiatrists, as many are absolutely dismissive of paranormal occurences.
If you want honest advice from people who have a lot of (real) paranromal experiences, check this forum out http://s2.excoboard.com/exco/forum.php?forumid=112101
People there are very wise and friendly. However, please do mention that you are currently insecure if those events are real - they will give you the appropriate advice.

Blessed be!

Lucky

If you want honest advice from people who have a lot of (real) paranromal experiences, check this forum out http://s2.excoboard.com/exco/forum.php?forumid=112101
People there are very wise and friendly. However, please do mention that you are currently insecure if those events are real - they will give you the appropriate advice.

Blessed be!

Lucky
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Thank you so much This is what I have been looking for.

hormones hormones flying all around
hormones hormones falling to the ground
ladies ladies be civil to one another
ladies ladies for the sake of your mother
be nice be nice... to your fellow nutball

Okay. Since you seem like maybe you're making a little bit of sense here I'm going to try and not sound like the horrible person everyone thinks that I am in this thread.

You do need to switch pdocs. A pdoc should never tell you that the possibility of you being crazy is highly unlikely due to your character. (!?) I am being most sincere here when I say that most mentally ill people (the term crazy isn't really attractive or accurate) are productive members of society and are NOT mass murderers like Ted Bundy. There are quite a few mental illnesses that are virtually indetectible by 'society' in general. Just because someone suggests that you need to see a psychiatrist does not mean that they think you are schizophrenic. Schizophrenia is not the only mental illness and it certainly is not the most common.

You should get a second opinion, not because anyone here tells you to, but because you feel like you need to. Go to www.nami.org and read up on mental illnesses other than schizophrenia. It might be worth your time.

nono you did nothing wrong, i just didnt have time to chek it out myself... cuse my rabit is... was sick... now he is dead

Your rabbit, you have a rabbit?
Or is your rabbit a type of program or something?
Sorry

Sounds like a real, live rabbit died.

Sorry to hear about your rabbit.

thanx for that...*sigh*. but hey, i just got back from turkey, so thats why i havent ben abel to post latly(marmaris if you are wondring wer in turkey), and it was a real rabit ...
but, anyways, ther have ben no truble with the ... "thing" while i was away?
i realy hope not...

This thread has had its day.

Closed.